oke so I might have been a few months dead on here.... that is very much true. but I kind of have a reason for that so just hear me complain about my life.
(really why are u still reading all my troubles in life like why? are u okay? u need a therapist? I'm a bad one but I'm free.... anyways on with the complaints)
1. my education is kind of killing me now... I have been on this internship for like 10 weeks now and it's like a full-time job next to school... I'm so tired.
2. I've been struggling a lot with my mental health. mostly because of school and my internship. I've been questioning if this education is really something I want to do for the rest of my life, and still don't really have an answer for that. I tried quitting nail-biting but it didn't last for 4 days because of my stress and anxiety... I let down a few friends and I felt horrible. but I'm trying to fix it now. (sorry for the friends I let down... u know if ur one of those people and I'm terribly sorry)
3. I've been questioning my gender identity a lot lately. I know I'm not a girl but I don't come any further than that. and it's stressing me out not knowing. and I know it's okay to not know but it makes me feel so stressed because what do I tell people when I say I'm not a girl. that I'm a boy because I don't feel like a boy much either. and non-binary doesn't feel like it fits that well with me... I just don't know. and don't get me started on the pronounces in my language... it just sucks.
now I almost finished my internship... this is my last week happily. and my vacation starts next week. so I can get a lot of school and intern stress off of me. I ended my internship this year with a good grade and am able to pursue my education next school year, so that is good.
I've been trying to focus more on my music too. I'm planning to post more covers and original songs on youtube pretty soon so ill keep u guys updated.
now I got that off my chest... I hope u understand why I was dead a little. ill try to come back alive a few more times on here.
Cya :))
