I Think I'm Fallin In Love With My Best Friend

5.

The last thing I remembered was that gunshot last night.

Boy, was I tipsy and I really can't believe Jude went with us. I don't want my future husband to die, he deserved more love than any of the friends he knows.

OMG, I actually do have a care in the world. I finally have emotions and ugh now why am I in the hospital bed?!!

When my eyes were open. I've seen my dad and my mom and it's so hard when my first love is not there.

I must've scared him off! I'm so stupid and I punched the wall and I see that maybe what happened should be for the best.

I mean..... I kissed Jude. it felt different. I like different but why is he on my mind lately. I touched his hand during the movies. I spend time with him and I barely knew if I had feelings for the guy.

I would dodge a bullet for Jude, if they hurt him then I got his back and he got mine.

I want to make it up but I didn't have to.

Mr. Perfect Boyfriend has finally arrived and I'm glad :)