Complicated - A Jesse Rutherford Fanfic

chapter 14

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shit.

I quickly call 911.

This is where it all begins.

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3:01pm

~AT THE ER~

I hope jesse is okay. As much as I hated him for what he did, he might actually care about me. Maybe.-

"Uhm, Miss Kacia, do you want to check on Jesse?" A nurse asks.

"Uh. Yes. Yeah I would, thanks." I say following her into the room where jesse is at.

The scent of 'hospital' is overwhelming to me once I enter the room.

I glance over at Jesse.. his eyes are open, I mean barely. Damn, he looks bad.

Jesse's POV

When I open my eyes I am completely blinded from then light, then my head starts to form a massive headache.

who is in the room..? I heard the door open..? Then I see a brown haired girl Is that... Raina?

I smile at the thought of her. So nice of her to come visit me..

"Raina!" I say in a quiet-loud voice.

she turns around and just stares at me.

"Raina.. haha. thanks for bringing me here. I love you baaa-" my eyes shut and I regain the headache.

My head starts to throb, then someone gently touches my shoulder.

"Jesse, please. Don't try and talk." A soft voice says to me.

KACIA's POV

As I'm talking with the nurse, jesse says something.

"Raina!" He says in a quiet-loud voice.

I turn in shock. Did he call me Raina??

Oh my fucking gosh. Why am I even here if this selfish bastard is still into Raina..

I need to keep my cool, but I don't know if I can. I might just storm out.

"Hey... Nurse.. Uh, sorry, Ms. Fasaol. Would you mind if I talked with jesse, for a couple minutes?" I ask.

"Oh, sure. Just try not to have him talk too much. & Jesse will need to stay here for another day until he is released to go home. And one more thing, notify me when you leave, just so I know. Thanks!" She says exiting the room.

click! The door shuts.

It's just me and jesse, silent.

I sit in the chair next to his cot.

"Hey jess." I say in a quiet tone.

"Raina..?" Jesse responds, trying to open his eyes.

"No.." I pause, calming myself down. "It's Kacia.." I finish.

I look at jesse. His eyes are as open as they can be and his cheeks start to turn red. His facial expression doesn't seem like much.

"I'm sorry." He says.

"Jesse. Stop fucking saying sorry. You always say that and expect me to forgive you, it's not going to happen. I don't even know why I still care about you. I know you don't care about me.. And how much you love Raina. I don't know why I try anymore. I really like you but I don't see why I should keep going after something that will never turn out well." I say with feeling.

"Kacia?" He says completely ignoring everything I just said.

"I'm done jesse. I'm done." I say getting up.

"I'm sorry." He says again with a cough.

"Jesse. Have fun with Raina because I obviously was just your replacement. I don't need this on me." I walk out the room, and try to understand everything.

I locate the nurse and sign out.

4:57pm

I arrive home. I open the front door, and by suprise i see my.. Mom? She's sitting on the couch like she's hypnotized.

I slowly creep towards to the living room.

"hey.. mom?" I say scared.

"hello Kacia." She says looking at me.

Her eyes indicate that she's in a calm state, not ready to yell or fight. She has a small smile, which makes me anxious.

"Why..? Aren't you going to yell at me?" I say confused.

"no.. I've realized something, I care about you. After everything that happened, your fathers death, you and jesse, moving to this dump.. I realized I treated you wrongly. & I know I don't have a lot of time.. but I want you to feel good. I- I want you to know your.. mother loves you." She half smiles and her eyes starts to get red, ready to tear up.

"What?" Im completely dumbfounded.

"Okay, I didn't have the best upbringing, my family fought, I was abused but that doesn't mean I have you to suffer." She says quietly.

"Mom, I know, I uh. Listen, you can't really "start to change" my childhood is already gone.. I'm turning 21 in 2 months. It's too late. I mean I appreciate this a lot, like so much. But I will never forgive you for my dad, and saying shit about jesse.." I answer.

"NO! No! no. First, I didn't kill your dad, that's ridiculous, that's is such an ignorant belief! You're father had something with his throat causing it to bleed, he yelled, disrupting it way too much, he couldn't breathe either. It's not like he cared about you anyways. He just used me. & jesse is a horrendous influence! You better not be dating him. I know what he does." She finishes.

I start to tear up at the thought of my dad.

I sit next to her and start to cry in my hands.

"tell me more.." I manage to say.

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