Sweet Faith

It's Complicated

Patrick's POV

„Vera, I-„
I was standing there for a good 2 minutes before something came to my mind. I was super speechless. How could anyone hurt such a pure woman? She was perfect and yet so hurt. I got myself together and finally said something.

- Vera, I don't want to sound like a weirdo that is crazy about you or like a psycho stalking you but in the very beggining I could see you've been hurt. I saw it in your eyes.. I know how it sounds but I just felt something was off.
„Stop. Please stop." - she said with her eyes watering more and more each second.
- I'm so sorry, I-
„Fine, just please go and leave me alone for a while" - she didn't even let me finish my sentence so I just left her alone respecting her wishes.

Vera's POV

Fuckk!! Why the hell can't I be happy for once? - I thought to myself while screaming to the pillow.
I wanted to go down there and apologize to Patrick for how agressive my reaction was but I was too afraid. He could and had a full right to hate me after what I said. I didn't know how to explain why I've been acting like that the whole time. Maybe I shouldn't even open up to him but what if he was the one? Anyways my behaviour was bitchy and I deeply regret that.

Patrick's POV

Ugh I'm such an idiot - it was my one and only thought about myself after I went down here and started analysing what I've done. I knew I should've been more gentle but I'm not myself around her. She makes me weak and I didn't even get to know her very well.
My eyes began to feel heavy, my thoughts slowly drifted away and I fell asleep.

Suddenly I heard quite loud footsteps and a shy voice saying
„Ex-xcuse me?"
Damn, it was Vera. I opened my eyes immediately and nervously looked at her. I couldn't believe she still came down here to me after this whole situation. It felt good and yet so unusual

- W-what can I do for you? I asked in a sleepy tone
„Well, I just wanted to say sorry. I didn't mean to be that rude with you.."
- What? Of course you have no reason to apologize. I am the one that should. I acted like a clown and should've been way more gentle with you...
„No, it's fine. I actually wanted to ask if you still wanna go get that drink with me?" - she asked awkwardly
- Of course, when do you want to go?
„Maybe at 7? It would be perfect!
Orr actually... we could go now? I can't believe i'm saying that but I need someone"
- Sure, I don't even have any work now and i'm free for the next 1,5hour so let's go

Vera's POV

- So, Patrick.. why are you so nice with me? Why do you care so much, I just can't understand it... and no! Please just don't get offeneded, I mean no one ever cares about me at all. I'm just feeling so different. I asked and immediately felt a huge regret of saying that.
„Here you go. One Margarita and Apple Martini" - the waitress distracted our conversation
„Well, you are not like everyone elese. You also seem hurt.." - It began hard to breathe after he said that
„I-i'm sorry if that's too much. I am just worried"
- No, it's okay. Actually i'm the one that asked for a company. Thank you for caring about me, it's just so special since nobody ever bothered to ask how am I doing

After I said that Patrick became pale and he looked like he's been deeply sad. I can't forget how worried he looked in that moment, I couldn't handle seeing him like that

„Do you wanna talk about it?" - Patrick asked
- Actually... I just.. I broke down and multiple tears started falling down my cheeks
„Hey, it's okay. It's okay, you don't have to talk about it if that's too difficult for you. Come here"

Patrick's POV

All I wanted now was to comfort her. I held her close to me and hugged her tight. I wasn't sure if she was okay with that so I tried to be as gentle as possible, but she hugged me back even harder. Wow, someone must have hurt this poor woman so bad.. my heart ached seeing her like that.

- Hey, you ok? - I gently asked
„Yes, actually no but I feel safer when you are next to me.. this hug meant more than you think it would. I didn't even know how much I needed that"
Oh my god, my heart started to beat 100times faster and I got butterflies in my stomach. I never was more happy to comfort anyone like I was with her.
- I'm so sorry Vera... I wish I could make things better. I hope you will feel better soon, you know you can always talk to me or just ask me for a company.. right?
„Just please be here"
- Of course

„Can I open up to you?" - she looked straight in my eyes with a worried stare
- Anytime you want. I forced a weak smile to hide how worried I was
„So.. my ex husband. I-I have 2 kids at home and they keep asking about their daddy. I can't handle this anymore. I keep crying into the pillow everynight and I'm so useless. I want my kids to be happy but instead they are always sad cause he isn't around. We got separated 4 months ago.. I don't think I'm ready to tell about details but I forgot how it is to feel safe throughout this whole time I was his wife. All I wanted was him to hug me and care about me-
I'm sorry I can't. Let's just leave it here"