Sweet Faith

Hard Times

Vera's POV

We got into the car in literal seconds and I couldn't get rid of those darkest thoughts. What if Gytta and Fynn are never going to be fully alright again? I really wanted to believe everything was going to be good but somehow I couldn't. This fear was taking over
„Hey, you good? Want some water, food?" - Patrick asked nervously
- No, it's fine. I mean how am I supposed to be good when my kids are devasted? There is a chance that they will never be fully okay after this accident. How am I supposed to be fine with it? I am so scared, Patrick. Please tell me things will get better
„Vera, I know how scared you must be. I never told you but I also have kids. I can imagine how worried you are, I don't think I could be that strong in such a situation. Your strength is something that amaze me and it never fails to make me proud of you. You made it here and I am sure you will be strong enough to keep it for your kids also. You'll see, they will get 100 times better when they wake up and see their amazing, brave mommy. And I guarantee that they will wake up. They are strong after you, V."
I got absolutely, totally speechless. Wow my heart felt super happy and super scared at once. The support he gave me is unbelievable. I'm so lucky I met him... but kids? Does he have kids? Is he married? God he must've have a wife! Okay okay it's not the right time. Not thinking about this now, not when my kids are in a need. I hate myself, i'm so selfish. - I thought to myself as I immediately started crying so much I couldn't feel my cheeks anymore.
„Vera, I promise it will be all good. I'm sorry if I said anything wrong, I wanted to comfort you" - he got nervous and told me with watery eyes already
- No Patrick, I am very grateful for all you do for me. I never felt so safe in my life and yet so ..
„It's okay, you don't have to say anything. You're in the most difficult situation a mother could ever go through. I know how hard it is for you. Just know you have my support. I will be here anytime you need to talk or just a company. You're so strong girl"
I just forced a weak smile to not seem rude since I was in so many emotions I couldn't even smile, think or talk properly.

„Here we are. Should I-„
I immediately ran out of the car leaving Patrick there. I couldn't wait anymore. I had to see my kids, that was the only thing that matter
- I'm Vera Farmiga. My kids Gytta and Fynn are after an accident. I need to see them right now, where are they? - I immediately asked a lady in reception
- Miss Farmiga, your kids are in a stable condition at the moment. We just confirmed that they should be all good but we need to keep them under observation till the end of this week, if anything turns the wrong way the risk will be too high. Your husband and kids are in the room 17.

I rushed there right away and when I was about to open the door a sudden feeling of enermous fear took over me. I was so scared of what I might see... but there was no time. My kids needed me. I opened the door and I saw my beautiful babies. They were as stunning as they always were. My heart ached but I was also glad to see them consious.

- Mommy! - They both screamed at the same time and I gave them the most honest smile I could ever give to anyone. I was crying so bad but I was smiling honestly. For them, because I was the happiest they recognised me without any problems and they were consious.
- Hey sweethearts
I took a sit on Gytta's bed and took their hands in mine. I kissed them gently and started crying even more. I couldn't believe I would ever have to see them in such a state. They were beautiful as always but they were in pain.
- Will you come home mommy? - Fynn asked in a soft and weak tone
- Yes baby, i'm not leaving. I'm staying here with you. I will be with you whenever you need me. I love you both so much
- We love you to mommy! - they both said.
I kissed them on forehead and told them to get a little bit of sleep since they needed to rest.

- Renn, are you sure you're okay? I quietly asked him to not wake the children up
„Yes, Vera I'm so sorry-„
- No, don't be sorry. I was mad but I can't blame you for that. That's not your fault.
„I can go if you want me to, thank you for letting me spend some time with our precious kids while you were away"
- Renn, they need both of us right now. Please, stay with me and them until they get better. You can sleep in my house so we both can visit them everyday in the morning. 2 days left, they need you too.
- Sure, I will stay. For them
- Thank you. I said and went to get something to drink
I couldn't believe my eyes.
„Hey, wanna take a sit? I got you coffee and a croissant. I thought you might need it"
- Aww, you really waited here for me and got me this?
„Yes, that is exactly what I did" he answered back and giggled a little
- Thank you, that's so sweet of you
I took a sit next to him and started to eat while sipping coffee.
„So are your kids alright?"
- Y-Yes. My heart is aching because they are in so much pain but the doctor said they will be good. They just need to stay under observation for 2 more days.
„That's amazing! I told you it would be all good, Vera"
- Thank you, really thank you for everyhting. You've been here since I arrived. You took care of me and now you took me to hospital. What did I do to deserve this?
„Shh, just rest and try not to overthink. You need some peace now" - he answered back
I slowly turned closer to him and gently tried to lay my head on his shoulder but I wasn't sure if it was okay with him
„Go ahead, you can" - He noticed that I was confused about it
- Thank you - I said and my eyes began to close since I was so exhausted

The loud sound of opening door woke me up and I saw Renn looking straight at us.
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to be continued :))