It has been 2 weeks since my Tennessee & Indiana trip along with my birthday. Me & Kace have been talking about wanting to do another trip in the summer but this time to Georgia with our now new favorite group of people.
"hey Kace, You know it's kinda weird I feel like he's being distant, I haven't done or said anything. I don't think." I told my sister who was making her & Taylor dinner on FaceTime.
"It could just be because he's working a lot Anna" Kace said to me not really knowing what to say.
"maybe, I don't know, he wasn't like this when he worked before the trip." I said as putting the whoel situation in the back of my head.
"just talk to him, say you need reassurance since you are that type of person and someone who can tend to overthink & need a sense of assurance" my sister said hoping to calm me down before I get too hung up on this situation.
"But speaking a which of trips I've actually been wanting to take a trip out to Los Angeles by myself" I said to my sister who was currently looking up air bnb's for our next trip.
"oh really? When" she asked now giving me her full attention.
"definitely sometime soon, you know I've always wanted to go out there since I was 12" I answered my sisters question.
"ok well just let me know when you have dates to go, I'm gonna go put her down then go to sleep so I'll call you later"
"Taylor, come say but to auntie Anna" she said to Taylor
"Bye auntie Anna, I love you" Taylor said to me
"Goodnight baby, I love you too" I said to the yawning niece of mine.
"ok I love you bye" my sister said before ending the call.
Maybe Kace is right maybe I should just send him a text
a couple hours I finally find myself sending him message.
Vinnie 🥰
April 25th, 1:25 Am
Me "Hey I know it's late but I have a question, & I could totally just be overthinking but when I went to ask my sister what to do she told me just to ask. But I don't know if it's because you're busy or not, But I've noticed you are kinda being distant, and stopped talking to me after the trip, & I'm a person who needs reassurance along with my overthinking it's not really a good mix."
April 25, 6:30 Pm
Vinnie🥰"hey no I'm sorry I haven't really been trying to be distant, when you met me, you met me at a time where I really don't have everything in my life in check. And especially after my breakup that just happened in January. I'm just kinda vibing right now, and if I'm feeling something good I'll just go along with it. But I really do think you're awesome & obviously I care about you, & Kace had asked me to come on this trip to be a supporting factor for you, but I hope you've had a good day & just respond when you have to time."
April 25th, 10:12 Pm
Me "I knew that you were still trying to figure things out and I completely understand. But I didn't know you had a breakup in January, and I'm sorry for that. There are just days right now where I don't even want to leave the house let alone my bed. But I never had something with anyone else the way I did or do with you, which unfortunately causes me to fall hard. I'd still love to have you in my life if you're up for it. The "Supporting factor" part is not making any sense to me. why would someone go on a trip & show someone who catches feelings easily attention if they're only there "in support"."
April 26th, 4:42 Pm
Me "^^^ I'm also just confused but I understand were you're coming from^^"
May 2nd, 1:11 Am
Me "Hey! it's been a week, still no reply from you. I've been giving you the space that I guess you needed. While I have been wondering with the what ifs circling in the back of my mind while as I'm also trying to distract my self from bursting into mental breakdowns & cry all night long. You keep leaving me on delivered and open which makes my emotions go out of place even more. Which I find really confusing if you can keep snapchatting my sister like it's nothing. If you're so big on being a gentleman and treating people with respect then why do that to me? I want to make things good between us, but can't even if you don't reply. If we are going anywhere I'd still like to be friends, again like I said a week ago if you're up for it. I know you and Anthony are going to be down near me this weekend so have fun and respond to this when you can."
May 2nd, 5:05 Pm
Vinnie🥰 "I apologize for all the unfortunate ones my feelings have caused for you. I realized you've been feeling what sounds like empty, as you've been seeking closure from me. I thought I had made myself clear as day but considering I didn't, I'm hoping this will be the last time I have to say this. Me and you Annalise are two very different points in life, as your sister has said before she wants nothing but the best for you and with that comes understanding as well. I realize that when me and you did me that you would most likely like me but you've been around boys not men.
You're still trying to find yourself and grow up, just as I am trying to find myself as well. You just graduated high school and now in college and with that you have time to take advice from one's like myself who say find yourself first before you place yourself in the relationship, but also be open to vibing out. Not necessarily hooking up but allowing yourself to be more open and free in the moment but not to an unsafe point.
That's why I never ever went all the way with you nor did I ever try I never wanted you to feel pressured, hurt, or anything that you would ever regret. I of course would love to stay friends with you Annalise and be in your life. Me and Anthony will enjoy the game that we're going to this weekend."
May 3rd, 11:10 Am
Me " I understand all of that and even before, just to a certain point. But I have one question? If you knew that I'd like you and you knew that you wouldn't like me like that then why did you give me the time and attention that you did?"
I had read out the messages to my sister, & my friends who was on FaceTime taking in everything I had just read to them while also wiping away all the heartbreaking tears.
"& he has still yet to reply." I said with sadness in my voice.
"Don't worry about a stupid gay boy" Layla said in hope to comfort me in that moment.
"I'm sorry babes you don't need him anyway." Ava said as well to help me from crying even more.
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Beautiful Mistake
FanfictionThis Story explains how a trip to clear a girls mind from a terrible heartbreak turns into such an interesting story of events that deemed to be beautiful mistake.
