✍︎︎𝚂𝚔𝚎𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔✍︎︎

✍︎C︎hapter 9✍︎︎

Yeonjun POV

I was drawing and writings things in my book. Of Soobin again. It was the next and lunch at the moment. I was in the library, I kept getting nervous around him. After that little kiss, I couldn't think straight when I saw him.

My mind wouldn't stop thinking. What if I kissed his lips instead? What if he awake and knew I kissed him the whole time? My mind kept racing with curiosity.

'Stupid bunny' it didn't feel right but yet it did. But more and more as my feelings grew so did doubt as well. There was something telling me not to like him, not to tell him. Cause he liked girls...

His light pink heart-shaped lips, his boba-like eyes, his soft hair, touch, voice, and everything. I wanted it all. Just him. Just Soobin. Only Soobin. It was a feeling never to fade, only grow until I couldn't bare it anymore. It brought tears to my eyes. 'I can't love him' It was scary.

Was I in love? Did I love Soobin? 'It's been two weeks but the best two weeks. It didn't make sense. Nothing did and I hated it. I just wanted him to be with me. I'd be damned if he loved someone that wasn't me. 'I'm in love with him aren't I?' tears fell. 'Does he even like boy's?'

I didn't want it to become a reality. I wanted my imagination to come true I wanted him to be with me. My prince charming. My bunny. My Soobin. His Foxy. His prince. His love all for me. I felt myself blush from the thoughts. I hide my face with my book. 'Stupid fucking bunn-' "YJ?"

I turned around to see Beomgyu behind me. "You ok you seem frustrated" he sat down beside me. "Beomgyu?" I said with a bit of a quiver. "Yea Yeonjun?" He sounded worried. "I think I'm madly in love with Soobin" I sniffed. " and I don't know what to do"

It took him a bit to process. "Huh?!" He was surprised. "Wait really?! Like love him?"
"Yes, you dumbass it's what I said" I was embarrassed. "Yeonjun... are you sure, can handle it if you know it repeats?" Beomgyu asked. "That's why I'm scared Beomgyu. Liking him I can handle, but loving him. It's too much to bare too many memories t-to many... many regrets" I said.

"Happy anniversary ----!! " It was our 2end year anniversary. " Thanks, Yeonjun " he smiled hugging me "So I have a surprise for you!!" "Oh really and what would that be Yeonjun"

I giggled " Something very special for a very special person" I was happy. So happy "Good cause I have a surprise for you too" he said.

" let me show you mine first" he had a weird look in his eyes. "Ok" I ignored it and went with him.

"Ok wait here" took me outside. It was dark so I couldn't really see. "Ok open your eyes" he said. I was confused. "Yeonjun you stupid little shit" all of the things I gave him. From Christmas, birthday, Halloween, New Year, stuff I gave him just because.

It was all piled up on the ground. "You know Yeonjun you're so easy to fool. It's pathetic. It was funny though, did you honestly think someone could ever think of loving you?" He laughed.

"Gosh you're such a loser and fucking loner I'm surprised you didn't even get a clue or suspicion" he took out something from his pocket.

"I hate you, Choi. So let me make this clear" he walked up to me, face to face. "Your a nobody Choi your just a little toy people can play around with and once they're bored they'll throw you out like your nothing cause it's what you've been all along" he grinned.

What? I was crying, hurt, broken. How could I have not seen it. I was stupid. "But I thought you loved me" I said. "Love you!?! You're a fucking joke!! All you are is just a shitty scared little boy with sensitive fucking feelings well news flash Choi, not everyone has a happily ever after fairytale shit especially you" he pushed me to the ground.

How could he. A joke. How could I. "But you said-" "who gives a fuck what I said it's over Choi you fucking cunt. No more forever and ever even after death I never liked you, Choi, I hated you the only reason why I agreed was because you were so much fun to mess with"

No no no NO NO NO! I don't deserve this. Right? I fell to my knees. My heart ached. It hurt physically and emotionally. He's right. "I really am nothing after all"

He had a lighter and lit it up. "Happy fucking anniversary Choi, you fucking worthless shit" and he threw it on the pile. Watching all my love for him burn with it too. Everything I did for him. Gone.

I don't want to love anymore.

I won't ever do it again.

End

-KaiBunny_ ／(^ ㅅ ^)＼