✍︎︎𝚂𝚔𝚎𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔✍︎︎

✍︎C︎hapter 16✍︎

Soobin POV

It was Friday. I was at home. My parents were going to court. It was the last one to declare whether my dad would have full custody of me. As much as I was nervous and I was worried.

There was a girl. A girl that I used or still using. I don't like her at all. She was such a bitch. But I didn't want to accept my feelings...for Yeonjun. Yes, Yeonjun. I wasn't sure at first then he left his art. And I opened tons of feelings and emotions were released.

I didn't know what to do. I couldn't like him. And if my mom found out it would be even worse. I found out that my mom had sent someone to pretend to be a student to watch me to make sure I didn't like boys.

I went to hide in the library. But of course, he followed. There was a girl flirting with me. I didn't know what to do. He had his phone out recording me.

I hated this. She tried to kiss me. I knew what would happen if I didn't. But I didn't want feelings for Yeonjun. Even though I liked boys I didn't want to hurt him. I felt like I wasn't good enough for him. I didn't want to be taken away or beaten just for liking him.

'I'm so sorry Yeonjun' and I kissed her. I had to make it look as real as possible. "Date me" she said. I didn't have a choice I couldn't fight back. So I had to agree. All I could think about was Yeonjun. Just him.

I hated this, I hated everything. I just wanted everything to end. For my parents to find out whether I'd be stuck in hell or finally be free.

I was on the bed look through Yeonjuns book. Cute bunny. He's so pretty. Little drawings and bunnies filled up the pages. Little love notes and poems. And I turned to the back of the page.

September 26th

Dear Soobin,

Even though you'll never see this thank you for everything. When I was younger there was someone who made me believe I wouldn't romantically like someone again.

Even though I haven't fully accepted my feelings for you, you made me feel alive again. I am scared and I don't when I'll be ready but when I am and if you do like me I'll be waiting for you.

Was it fate? probably! but I guess I'll never know. Unrequited love, I guess... but no matter what I'll always support you!! You're the best bunny.

I don't know if it's your beautiful personality or boba-like eyes or heart-shaped lips but your really something Soobin.

Love,
Yeonjun (Foxy)

I had tears in my eyes. I like him, don't I? I was angry. I wanted him to myself. He was so obvious yet I couldn't see it. 'Fuck mom' I threw the book across the room.

'Why can't I just accept the fact I fucking like him?' It was frustrating. "I'm sorry Yeonjun" I said between sobs. "I love you" I said. "I love you so much I can't help myself. I'm sorry Yeonjun" I was completely broken.

I was in love with someone who I could possibly never be with. "fuck you mom. FUCK YOU!" I was screaming. "WHY THE FUCK CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT ME?!" I was so upset so aggravated, so.. so fucking mad.

"Yeonjun" I whispered. I crawled to the book. I opened it looking at the pages. "pretty hair, heart-shaped lips, boba-like eyes, cute bunny, I like you," I was reading the little notes he wrote.

It made me feel better. he did little hearts and stars and tiny bunnies everywhere. " he's so cute" I sniffed while smiling. "I love him so much" I told myself. Why is he so damn perfect? 'it's all your fault Yeonjun' i kept looking at the book.

I don't how long I was there. I didn't let it go. I was memorized by his writing. 'it's all about me' i smiled. I felt appreciated and safe with him. I just wanted to express my all feelings to him right in front of him.

I wanted to show him every single feeling I felt for him. I closed the book and held it close to my chest. I ended up falling asleep on the floor.

I love you Yeonjun.

End

-KaiBunny_ ／(^ ㅅ ^)＼