Alycia Debnam Carey (gxg)

Alycia

A/n: I suggest you listen to Wonder by Shawn Mendez while reading this!!

Y/n's pov:

I'm laying on my couch while watching a movie waiting for my roommate to come home. It's 3:00am and i'm worried she's not home yet. You see i've been in love with her for years, but i know that it will never happen. She's with someone already and i'm sure she's straight. His name is Y/b/n. And he so happens to be my brother. It's hard seeing her happy with him.

I wonder if I'm being real
Do I speak my truth or do I filter how I feel?
I wonder, wouldn't it be nice
To live inside a world that isn't black and white?

I hear giggling from outside of the door and sounds of kisses. And soon enough i hear the door open. I look back to see my roommate Alycia on a full on make out session with my brother.

"God thats gross" I say making a disgusted face

"Maybe you shouldn't stay up waiting for my girlfriend" I hear my brother say

My brother knew i was in love with Alycia, even before they started dating. It pissed me off that he started dating her even when he knew. But as long as she's happy, ill do my best to be happy for her too.

"Calm down Y/b/n, i was just watching a movie on the sofa" lies.

"Sure y/n, whatever. Anyways see you later babe." He says to Alycia and squeezes her ass.

This hurts to watch. I hear Alycia giggle before my brother makes his way to the door. I let out a breath i didn't even know i was holding and feel my eyes water but i try to play it cool since Alycia's here.

I wonder what it's like to be my friends
Hope that they don't think I'll forget about them
I wonder
I wonder

"Hey Y/n whats up?" I hear Alycia say

"Nothing i'm just going to bed, Goodnight Alycia" I quickly say and rush to my room before she can say anything

I throw myself on the bed and close my eyes feeling the tears rush down my face.

Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by

I pull the covers over me so they're up to my neck and cry. I let it all out. I love her. And it hurts me that she can't love me back. Maybe it's my fault for letting myself fall in love, maybe it's my fault for telling my brother how i felt about her. He's always after what i want and he gets it. He gets her and everything i've always wanted. I can't control my breathing now, and my hands are shaky. I can't deal with this. I just wonder...

I wonder why I'm so afraid
Of saying something wrong, I never said I was a saint
I wonder, when I cry into my hands
I'm conditioned to feel like it makes me less of a man
And I wonder if someday you'll be by my side
And tell me that the world will end up alright
I wonder
I wonder

I sit up and bring up my knees to my chest and wrap my shaky arms around them. My cheeks soaked from the tears and my eyesight blurry from all the crying. I lay back down and start looking at the ceiling, thinking back to how happy she looks with my brother.

Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

As i'm thinking back to all of these moments i feel my eyelids getting heavier by the second and slowly drifting off to sleep.

wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
I wonder what it's like to be loved by

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As I'm getting ready to go out i hear knocking at the door. I walk out of my room wondering who it could be, but my questioning is soon answered by my brother who's here to pick up Alycia.

"Hey babe" my brother says to Alycia as she walks out of the room

"Hi baby" Alycia says

She looks so happy.

"Well we've got to get going by Y/n" my brother says

"Bye.."

Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too

"I wonder what it's like to be loved by you." I say as they close the door behind them

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A/n: Hi guys!! Sorry for not posting updates on Forbidden love i broke my arm and haven't been able to move it well but i got my cast off recently so i'm back! I'll try to post more often but here's something. Anyways Ahh it's Alycias birthday!!