i hate doing this do yall but i literally cannot write to save my life rn lmao. Like im not even 3 paragraphs into the next chapter but like- i have no idea what to write because all my motivation for this story has just gone poof. I dont know if its because im working too much or stressed out but im trying so hard to write but nothing it coming out of my brain.
My health has been declining these last few weeks. My scoliosis is getting worse, i can hardly do anything because it hurts. I almost out of refills for my testosterone that im always late at getting because its expensive to buy it. i still dont have health insurance so i cant go to the doctor because itll be expensive to go see one then pay more money for mecidine that i need. Im broke all the time so i literally cant do anything fun anymore. Im so fucking lonely that i fucking cry because i wish that i had someone to be there/ here for me when i need them. One of my best friends live a state away and i dont get to see her that often , and my other best friend that lives 10 minutes away is in a different state 6 hours away visiting their best friend for a few weeks.Bith of them have boyfriends and im so fucking jealous for no reason because i have yet to find my person. my last actual relationship was 4 years ago bur it was so toxic that i dont know how real ones are suppose to be so im just going on with life confused and sad because i have no idea whats going on, what to do, and how to just live.
I hate ranting on here but i dont want to bother my only friends with my depressing shit when they are having fun because i dont want to make it about me and i just want to curl up and cry but i hate crying because it makes me feel weak even though the strongest people are the ones who cry but i fucking hate crying. I hate it so fucking much. Im a mess and im trying to hide it from everyone in my life because i was getting better mentally, but i dont know if i am. It hard trying to seem like im okay when im not.
so yeah.. ill try getting the next chapter up but idk how long its going to take
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--BLUE HAIRED IDIOT-- Bakugo Katsuki love story
Fanfiction**under going editing . So if some chapters look poopy it's cause it is lol. Chapters with ✔️ are edited but may or may not be changed** Bakugou Katsuki has always been self absorbed in his own head. Getting a strong quirk at a young age, he got int...
