Seventeen Imagines [REWRITING]

#24-"Should Have"

#DK

ˢᵘᵍᵍᵉˢᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗᵒ ᵖˡᵃʸ "ᵐᵒᵐᵉᵐⁿᵗˢ" ᵇʸ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵈⁱʳᵉᶜᵗⁱᵒⁿ ʷʰᵉⁿ ʸᵒᵘ ʳᵉᵃᵈ. ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵒⁿᵉˢʰᵒᵗ ⁱˢ ⁱⁿˢᵖⁱʳᵉᵈ ᵇʸ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ.

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"How can you be a scaredy cat? I should fire you as my bodyguard, should I?"

Look at her, she's laughing at me. I'm glad that the reason of that smile is me. If only I could make it stay forever, if only I could see it every morning, if only I could stay with her forever...

"Hey! You're that scared? That was just a piece of cake for me. And I was just joking when I said I would fire you." She continued.

I'm having a date with my boss. I can't say no to things that she said, that includes two of us entering the horror house. I'm a coward to be honest, I'm scared of many things. I don't know why she's calling me her bodyguard if the real job of mine is to keep her in company.

Her parents hired me for that but she's insisting that I should wear a bodyguard's uniform. That's weird.

"Stop crying, okay? Look. I'm sorry for taking you there."

She holds my cheeks and wipe my tears off my face. The truth is the two of us are together. Who wouldn't fall for her? She got it all. I love her dearly to the point that I couldn't live without her.

"Let's just go home and cuddle!" I said cheerfully to her because she looks down when I started crying. I hate it when she frown.

When we arrive, we do the same things we always do. Cuddle and just fool around the mansion.

This is too big for the both of us and it's too empty. There are only maids who's busy doing their jobs. I'm doing mine also. Making her not bored and make her smile.

"You're the best bodyguard, best friend, boyfriend. How can you be the best in all of it huh?"

She sleepily said it to me. I giggled in what she just said to me, especially to that bodyguard part. "Don't call me bodyguard will you?"

"Why~ You should like it because that word makes you less obvious that your a big fluffy guy."

She's good at her words, isn't she? I don't know if I would feel nice about it or I'll feel insulted. I know that what she's trying to say.

Everything is perfect right now.

The door of her room suddenly opened that makes me startled and turn my head towards that direction. That also wakes her up. I immediately turned pale looking who's at the door.

"Does your job includes sleeping with my daughter?"

The moment that her father said that, I knew it's the end of my job here.

And everything turned into something that both of us never imagined. We spend less time together since I'm working several jobs for me to survive. I need also to show her parents that I am capable to be with her and give her the needs she wants.

My plan is to be as wealthy as they are or more to prove them right. I feel bad for always declining Y/N's invite for us to date or hangout. I know she only have one buddy to keep her company, sadly it's me. I'm busy doing things for us to be together again.

"DK! Let's go have a date. Please please please~"

Here she is in my filthy apartment- she's not supposed to be here in the first place. I also don't have any extra money for the both of us to have a date. I'm done letting her money paid our date.

"Y/N, you know I can't right?" She pouts at my response.

"I'm not asking you to take me to any expensive place okay? I'm okay in the convenience store."

I'm a bad guy. How can I let her eat this instant ramen and instant coffee? Should I just let her go to be with other guys? I can but my heart won't let me.

We spend that day together and surprisingly it become the day that's like how we used to be. Just us, having fun and showing our love for each other.

"You should go home, Y/N. I'm sure your parents are worrying"

"They still haven't go home since the time that you left though."

"Just go home Y/N and I'm hoping that you won't beg me for another date. I need to make money." I said to her kindly, she just nodded and go home.

Next weeks was hell to me but worth it. I already save tons of money in able to open a restaurant that me and Y/N dreamed of. And also that's the last time I saw her. We still in touch and talked every night. It's short though, we just tell how are day went and then hang up.

'Y/N! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU! I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I'M DOING EVERYTHING FOR US TO BE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN? HANG IN THERE OKAY?!'

That's the words that I always think about but never said it to her.I screamed it in my thoughts as I watched the cloudy sky. My voice is numb and that make things harder for me.

'YOU SHOULD'VE HAVE TELL ME EVERYTHING! YOU SHOULD'VE HAVE KNOWN THAT AND BE THE REASON FOR YOU TO CONTINUE TO LIVE.'

I continue to scream mentally as I cried so hard then stare at the body of water down me.

I'm afraid, I'm a coward but I will do everything for us to be together again, Y/N. I'll follow you wherever you go even that's the afterlife. I have no one with me only you, Y/N. But you go somewhere that I can't see you again so I'd do this for you.

If I could turn back time, I should've show you how much I love you. I should have stand against your parents for us. If I can have a another day with you, I should have tell her that I can be the reason for her to live. I should have do everything and say everything just to make her stay...

Without hesitation, I jumped at the bridge, my body fall down and all I can think is Y/N. I smiled for the last time as the water take my body deeper and deeper.

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Ending your life isn't a solution for anything, before you do it think about the people around you that loves you. They might not show their affection but they care. There's always someone who care and love you, it's impossible for you to say that there's no one because you can't read other people's feelings.

Think about how much pain you'd cause to them after. Don't be swayed by those thoughts and feelings it will passed by. Just like how the clouds passed sometimes and try to cover the light of the Sun.

Thank you for reading!❤️