BTS IMAGINES BY @youmeandi7💜

When you're jealous of his new friend : him as your best friend-crush

Warning: mentions of self-harming, depressions and anxiety

Park Jimin (oneshot):
'Yah, Jiminaah!' I yelled at my best friend, but before I could speak further or walk to him, some other girl came and hugged him. 'Hey Chim.' She said as I just rolled my eyes, cause Jimin hates when someone calls him Chim (well, let's just pretend😂💜). 'Oh, Hi Lisa.' He smiled back and they walked away together. I pouted and sighed before going to the class. I was ready to take my seat when Lisa came and took it instead of me. 'Excuse me, uhm...I'm sitting here.' I said politely as she was shocked and quickly apologized. 'Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know-' 'It's okay Lisa, sit here. Y/N, Lisa is new here, can't you sit somewhere else, please?' Jimin said as I felt my heart sink. I gulped down the hardness and nodded before going to the last desk, being completely alone. It was like this every single lesson and I was burning with pain. I thought that at least lunch I could've spend with him, but no. I came into the hall and saw them laughing and chatting with each other. I threw the food on my tray to the trash bin, cause I didn't have the appetite anymore and went towards my locker with tears in my eyes. I wiped them off and sighed heavily before heading to the bus stop, to go home. I'm not a very confident type of person. In fact I've had a deep depressions and anxieties. I used to cut myself and starve until I fainted, cause since childhood I was bullied, but when me and Jimin became friends, he saved me from the world around and protected me. Since that noone bullied me or anything like that. Jimin is my safe place and I actually feel like I have deep feelings for him. Yes, I have a crush on Jimin, cause who wouldn't, besides he was always by my side and promised me to be there forever, but maybe these were just stupid, manipulating talks to distract me from the pain. I just know for sure that I love Jimin and it kills me inside when he isn't beside me. I feel like dying and everything is coming to me again.

Time skip:
Time went by and It's already two weeks since I saw Jimin alone. Yes, we were hanging out, but only when Lisa did too which I was angry about, so I stopped going out as I always made up some stupid excuse. These two weeks were a horror for me. Crying, anxiety...I completely lost control of myself. I started cutting myself again and starving wasn't my past anymore either. I've been throwing up since the beginning of this week and I don't know what is happening with me, but I hate myself. I just need someone to talk with and cuddle.....I need love...I need him. My parents passed away when I was little and so I lived with my grandma, but she passed away two years ago and since that time, Jimin was the only one who cared about me.
I was just watching TV when it came to me again. My hands were shaking, I was sweating and crying uncontrollably. I completely lost my senses as I was screaming. I needed to do it.....I needed the cut, but I didn't see the razor anywhere, so I took the first thing that I saw. The knife. I took it and wanted to do it, but suddenly I heard a doorbell ring. However I flinched and cut myself. I hissed in pain as I covered it up with my long sleeved hoodie and went to open the door. I opened the door and there was Jimin standing with some bag in his hands. 'Hi, are you up for a movie night?' He asked and hugged me, but something wasn't right and he knew it....especially when I broke down in his arms. 'Jimin...I'm so sorry.' I said and pulled away. Before he could ask, I showed him my hand as the blood was dripping om the floor. 'Y/N! Come here!' He dragged me inside and immediately started treating the wound. 'Y/N...why are you doing this?! Do you think It's okay to hurt yourself like this?! Listen to me.....you are a beautiful, smart and just a perfect girl okay?! You don't have to loose weight and I'm telling you, you're gonna eat or I will make you-' 'But why?! You didn't seem to care! You were with Lisa instead of staying by my side. I hate you, but I need you and I love you and am fucking jealous Park Jimin!' I sobbed loudly as his eyes softened. 'Oh my baby....Lisa is just my friend, okay? She was new and the principal told me to keep an eye on her. I didn't mean to ignore you or anything. I care for you so much and maybe even too much Lee Y/N, but I don't care, cause even If I was obsessed with your safety, I love you too much to let you hurt yourself or even worse....let you go forever! Don't do this Y/N If not for yourself than for me, cause I can't live without you!' He said while already holding me in his embrace and stroking my hair as he whispered sweet words in my ears to calm me down. This was the feeling that I needed. 'Okay, let's eat my pouty little baby and don't make your boyfie angry okay?! We will do this together Y/N! I know we can.....I know you can!'
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