Lost

Four - Small Talk

Jisoo

2:38 am

Sigh

Why couldn't I just get some good sleep ?

I took the blanket off me and walked towards the bathroom .. I washed my face with a warm water , I know I won't gonna get another hour of sleep . I dried my face and stare at the mirror for my reflection ..

It's been a long time but you're still as beautiful like the first time I saw you ..

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Aish ! It was early for a lunch but yet it's already full ..

I thought , as I place my car at the parking space I got here at the back of Pran's Restaurant .. I get myself off my car and walked at the back door to get in . I was about to hold the handle when my phone rang .. Yerim

I stood at the door for quiet some time talking with my sister , she's going back as well .. Everyone did adjust for me . Just for me to be okay , huh ?

" Unnie ? " Yerim called at the other line . I took a deep breath and smile even she don't see me .

" I'm fine , Yerm .. Nothing to worry about , okay ? I'll pick you up at the airport tomorrow . Call me when you arrived . I love you .. " I said hopefully she'll let it go , I don't want her to worry anymore .

I heard her sighed on the other line .. " I love you Unnie .. I'll call you when I land . " I breath thankfully , but I still heard the worry in her tone .

I hummed as I ended the call , looking up at the sky wondering why I really came back . The news about her engagement .. It immobilized my body , I felt the flow of pain through my veins until the very small cell of my insides .

I shook my head , washing the thoughts away . I couldn't be weak . I choose to go home , I should at least don't waste all of their efforts to protect me and to help me build up myself .. Sigh

When I looked inside through the glass walls of the restaurant , I smiled a little . This restaurant haven't changed a bit . It was still as beautiful as it is since the last time I've been here , I wonder how Uncle Marco maintain the coziness of the place ..

I hold the metal handle to open the door when I spotted Lisa standing with her face so pale looking .. What happened to her ?

I was about to get in when I find myself frozen and spot a familiar silhouette of someone in front of my friend .. I loose my grip at the handle . I felt my insides turned upside down . My heart beats faster , I could even hear it through my ears .. I felt cold suddenly , in the middle of a sunny day . My palms get sweaty , my grip from my phone tightens , it's getting numb already but I can't help myself to look down at my hands at the fear of maybe it's just a dream , to finally seeing her ..

I took a deep breath , tears escape from my eyes . Damnit ! Control yourself , would you ?

It's been five years , but she get's more beautiful and beautiful through it . Her hair grew longer , a bit wavy like how it is , naturally .. She looses weight , it's obvious just by looking at her face . Her chubby cheeks still in there , maybe she haven't had lunch yet .. Her pretty little feline eyes was more noticeable now with the help of some make up . Her brows still moving along when she's talking .. GOD ! I missed her ..

I swallowed hard as I look at her smile . But why doesn't it reached your eyes , baby ? Are you okay ?

I wanted to barged in the restaurant and hug her , kiss her .. I want to take her away and keep her for myself . Oh only heaven knows how much I wanted to just at least see her , looking back at me . But I just breathe in the urge of doing all that , I can't afford to scare her off because she doesn't know me . My friends and my siblings .. All their efforts will be thrown wasted when I let my wall down again .