[1] Wish: Withered At Winter | Taegyu Fanfiction

Chapter 1: I'm Choi Beomgyu

"Hey! Beomgyu! Let's play after this!" One of my closest friend, Jay asked me out.

"You know I can't hahaha." I laughed and stood up after putting all my stuff in my bag pack.

"Ahh yeah... You can actually ask for help from your parents, why work so hard? You're just a student." He commented.

"I don't have parents remember? Hahahah and besides you'll still lose even if we play together HAHAHAHAH I'll go now." I said before leaving him behind.

"HEY! COME BACK HERE! I'M GOING TO BEAT THE HELL OUT OF YOU!" I heard Jay shouted and I just laughed at him before completely leaving him behind.

I run-walk because it's almost 5pm and I still have a part-time job. I unlocked the chains in my bike and started riding till I reach my neighborhood.

I reached iCart, the convenient store where I'm working and Mrs. Kim is actually waiting for me already. "I'm not that late HAHAHAH." I laughed after I went it.

"I know, I'm going now... Uh, yeah I remember, I think there are some foods that needs to be discard now. You can have those after you list it, okay?" Mrs. Kim said before leaving me behind.

"Yeees! Please take care!"

I took a deep breath before wearing the uniform of the store and get a basket. I checked every item that is on its expiration date. While doing it, I'm also arranging every item.

Then I heard the door chimes so I put down the basket first and look if there's a customer, "Welcome..." I greeted with a smile. "Oh? Jay what are you doing here?" I asked Jay when I realized that it was him.

He started walking and grabbed some snacks that he really like, "Hey, I'm going to ask someone out. Will it work?" He asked me.

"Who?"  I asked him.

"Ahh forget it... I'll pay this." He said so we walked towards the cashier.

"I thought you're going to play?" I asked him while counting all he bought.

"Yeah but those bastard cancelled in the last minute, arggh they're really always in my nerves. You know that?" He said that made me laugh.

"Stupid HAHAHA, you should teach them some lessons... 139" I said talking about the total cost.

"Yeah they are a bunch of that..." He then lends me the money, "But you know that tall guy with... What you call that? Dimples?  In the other section?" He asked.

"Huh? Uh... Choi Soobin?" I asked him.

"Yeah,  right! The son of the school owner... They said he's good at E games it makes me want to hang out with him sometimes."

"Oh, really? That's good. You should make a lot of friend hahaha." I commented and gave him the plastic bag with his snacks inside.

"Right, I really should hahahhaa. Okay then, I'm going now." He said and waved his hand at me.

"Yes hahahah take care!" I shouted and he gave me thumbs up.

I continued what I'm doing and after that, I did some of my homework in the counter while there isn’t still some costumer.

It's already 12am so I need to wrap up things, clean some trash and check everything before closing the store. I wore my hoodie because it'll be really cold tonight.

I'm walking with my bike in a quiet alley and enjoying the music from my earphones. Just a few blocks and I arrived at my apartment.

I lived in a small basement where a broke student like me can afford. I went down the stairs and open the door. I didn't turn on the lights and just jumped in my bed, where it's just right ahead the door.

I took my phone from my pocket and turned the data on but it's still kind of useless. My phone is too old and it's still in 3G, it has a lot of cracks and some lines on its LCD.

The purpose of this phone is only for emergency and music. In case the hospital will call me if something bad happens to my grandma.

Yes, I'm not living alone in here. I have my grandma but she's sick and I can't take her out from the hospital because I don't have the money. She also needs an urgent operation but fuck, I don't have anything with me.

I don't even have the parents whom should be with me.

I closed my eyes in frustrations then I heard some loud noises above. I sighed and cover my ears with pillow. This always happens. All I want is to get out in this place but I can't.

This is my life. This is how I live. This is Choi Beomgyu.

I couldn't sleep so I grab my guitar and play a soft song while looking at the small window in my front. I'm strumming it and felt myself tearing up.

I'm not a strong person, as much as possible I don't want them to know I'm weak. I want them all to see me laughing and just smiling everyday but deep inside I'm really broke.

"Beomgyu... You can do it... You can do it..." I cheered myself.

Sometimes I'm blaming the Deity for giving me this kind of life but I think the Deity doesn’t care about me.

"Fuck, life. Fuck life."

Everything is really mess when you don't have parents who guide you but good thing I have someone who acts as one.

I sighed and fixed my eyes on the moon that I can see from my windows. It is really shining beautifully.

"I wonder how love really works..." I muttered out of nowhere then someone popped out in my mind that made me smile.

He's one of the reasons  I'm still doing everything I can. I hope we'll really meet each other sooner.

"Ahh... How I wish he'll notice me... Fuck social life status."

So yeah, this is how I live. This is how fucked up I am. Stupid life, stupid me and stupid existence. Everything is just so stupid.