So This is Life?

Chapter 2

They say children now a days are very emotional unstable.They always think that for us our feelings always validate everything but, we are not seeking for the validation of everything we just wake up in reality that this life works in travail.

New day, another day of battling the abyss I feel.New day, another day of worrying about the future.To be honest, Im tired.At least I want to know what I want.I want to know what I love without minding them.

It's already sixth-thirty in the morning.Our classes will starts at exactly eight in the morning.It's too early to go to school but I like it.I seat in the end of the jeep near the entrance so I can easily go without interacting their eyes on me.The ride will only take five minutes so it's safe to presume that I won't be late since it's still early.

I set my gazes straight so I wont look on what others do.Thinking what will I do today, made me feel so reluctant.

Wala pa man sa school pagod na utak ko.

When the jeep stopped in front of our gate I immediately walk towards the gate.The school still empty since it's only 6:36 A.M.

The guard on the left side of the gate smiled and greeted me but, I don't have strength to greeted him back because I can't feel the sincerity of greeting others if I don't feel happy.I pass by without saying anything. I maybe rude but, I don't know how to react from their greetings.I'm glad they are happy—not like me dwelling the problems of life as if Im the only one who has it.

I walk towards the rooftop.The safest place here in school.When I open the door, the breeze hit my face that made me close my eyes a bit.I went near to the edge of the rooftop.At least at this place I feel so safe.

Observing the beautiful morning on Earth.It's pleasant to think how beautiful to live on Earth if we're only here to live—without problems.

It's nice to think that Earth is a paradise but, the people here is cruel.

Everyone want to witness how lovely the Earth is.But not everyone see the world the same as the perspective of optimistic.Not everyone sees the light behind the darkness.

"I want to live," a voice from a familiar person.I did not expect that she will confess that.I looked at her.She's smiling.Her smile is pure.Her wavy hair blown by the wind along with her tan skin hit by the beam coming from the sun rising.She look stunning.Her eyes were glisten. They look with so much hope.

"Good for you,"I said as I return my gaze on the view I was looking before.Maybe in this world full of worrisome she find her hope.

" I want you to do the same,"she said.I laughed with sarcasm in my mind.How?How will I do that if I'm tired enough.Looks like the conversation is going to heads up to the topic I've been avoiding. I turn my back ready to walk towards the rooftop exit when suddenly two boys came.The blonde boy is smiling and the other boy is looking at me.

She ankled her arms to mine.

"We want you to do the same," Zoro said as I remembered his name from what happened from that day. Planning to surmount what I feel will just hurt me more.I shove off her hands and passed by Zoro towards the exit without minding their presence. It's easy to say but, it's hard to do.

Before I finally arrive at the door someone grabbed my arms that stopped me.I look to whom that hands were belong and it's him again. I met his eyes furiously looking at me. I looked at him with so much cold in my eyes.I don't know them and they don't know me so why they need to mind my business.

"This is the last time I let you hold my hands and next time you do it again, I'll cut it in front of your eyes," I said before aggressively get my hand to finally walk towards the door.I don't even need you.