Left For Revenge

E҉N҉O҉U҉G҉H҉!҉

There is a boundary that not many
Experience in crossing.
A line that seems so non-existing
Up to an extent that
It is no longer of choosing.

Take a good look in that mirror,
A lie in your direction.
What is it that you see?
What is it that you feel?
About that person who's
Watching you.

Shame, guilt, regret.
All ingredients to a life of
Sorrow and pain.
A poignant story with no overcoming
Will never be told.
Because no one will care
About you anymore.

But I took a look in that mirror
Of self-reflection.
That iridescent, touching light
Object that glistened right back
At me.
And I have done this many times
Before, but this time
Was different.
I took one hard look at that person
In front of me and I yelled,
"ENOUGH!"

I told her,
"Enough with your tears!
Enough with your fears!
Enough with your 'I'm not good enough'
And 'I will never be enough'!
Enough with stabbing me in the back!"
I screamed at the top of my lungs,
That they burned so hard from the fire
That was finally set.
It was set and ready to destroy that
Filthy waste of mine.

The tears came crashing down,
Waterfalls of powerful storms of rage
Coming to my domain.
That thorned bush that kept
On pinching me whenever I tried
To cross it.
A position I was put in
Not because of me,
But because of others.

Actions were taken against me
And I was beaten.
I was kicked and dusted,
Filthy and dirty on that floor.
Chased to that "Failure" Avenue
And left there to die.
As my fellow peers yelled
All the things I was convinced of
Myself.
Not enough.
Disgusting.
Ugly.
Imperfection.
A mistake.

And I layed there,
Hands reaching for the white flag,
Because now my own shadow
Followed me with the same remarks.
My beautiful dress was torn
By the shame I had thrown.
The scars and the bruises were all there.
My spirit then called out to me,
"Don't give up, it ain't over.
And if you wanna lay there then
Be my guest.
But I see a fire ready to be
Anguished."
My cold fingers, turning into fists
Smashed against the rubble
And picked up my entire body,
Then my legs did the rest.

I stood up, weak and fragile,
But then I looked at that shadow
Dead in the eye
And I yelled,
"ENOUGH!"
My voice roared like a lion
And a powerful lightning bolt
Came jolting down,
To tear apart the Earth and make
Those miserable voices come out.
And I yelled once more,
My lungs fully out of breath
But I said,
"No more!"

The chains in my hands letting loose
As I saw the words that
Came out of my mouth:
I am Beautiful,
I am worthy,
I am perfectly imperfect
And no
I am NOT sorry.
I shattered the shell of the girl
Who doubted in herself
And broke free from those
Elegiac chains
That kept on holding me back.
I scared away every anxiety in me
And every insecurity in me
And I finally fought back
To win what was rightfully mine.

My enemies, defeated.
My insecurities, anguised.
That shadow, GONE.
And I walked amongst them all,
All who defied me.
And I flew into that life I knew
I rightfully belonged.
High in the sky where the birds
All knew my song.
My battle scars never healed,
But the shattered pieces of my heart
Were now glued.

Now, take a look again
At that person you see within.
Don't beat him to a scold,
Don't drown her on your own,
Don't make them the enemy.
Because if you are the one that I see
Who walks with his hoodie on,
Head down low,
eyes observing every enemy
Or with that fake mask that only makes
You the worst you can be,
Then it is time for you to finally
Say,
"ENOUGH!"
Dry those tears
And let the world see
That person beneath.