its been currently four days since
i last drank that bottle
of vodka and london dry gin
sitting on the highest shelf. i
have been craving for a sip
since our last goodbye. god
how i loved the way it burned
down my throat and stung
and how it set my lungs on fire.
i never knew how fun
drinking was until we parted
but it also made me think
of you without intentionally
knowing. god you leaving
makes me want to try
every drug in this world
to drown myself into
because im done losing my breath
in your waves that feel like kisses
im done being played with by your tide
and even though i love getting
sinked in deeper into those
dark orbits you so longly hated
i know it is time for me to simply
let go of your hand and grasp another
because you may have been my saviour
but you were also my demon
like the drugs we used to take
because our therapists told us to.
i miss you and my heart still
aches when it hears your name
but its only been a few days
and soon after a couple more
your visage and smile
will be the one sinking in every drug
ill be drowning you in.
-(bc you're no longer my favourite drug) j.d.
Poetry Book 2
Enjoy.
