Write a 26-line poem using all the letters of the alphabet
And I no longer spend my nights wishing upon a shooting star
But i still waste my 11:11 wishes on you and
Cry myself to sleep, then slowly
Dream of you
Every night
For the past three years and i know that i should just, oh
God, just forget about the way you used to
Hold my hands and fingertips so close to your lips on this time of year.
Its not easy forgetting your cheeky smile and
Just how much you used to smell like chocolate mint and cigarettes. It
Kills me to know that you are dead
Like it killed my cat when a car ran over her.
My throat is dry from all the screaming at the walls.
Nothing seems to feel the same since you've been gone.
Out the window, my sanity has left me. I'm
Pushing all the memories of you into a box, but you won't
Quit it. You wont let me
Rest. You won't stop
Spending visits in my head.
Thinking about you and all the memories is all i seem to do
Under blankets and sheets and naked maple trees. I
Very much wish to
Wake up and find you next to me. There's a huge
'X' on my heart and
You're the reason to my brokenness. I am now
Zoning out into the distance, wondering if your last thoughts were of me.
(Winter: February 16, 2015)
j.d.
