Daylight

Gorgeous

I'm in a dream. I must have fallen asleep...

"Don't go quiet on me now. I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Marry me, Charlotte."

Without saying a word I throw my arms around his neck, pulling me and kiss him feverishly. My hands in his hair, running down his neck, his shoulders. I feel the cold metal of his dog tags in my hand, the familiar bumps of letters and numbers brings me back to reality.

This is real.

I feel the sting of tears in my eyes, but I don't care. After returning my kisses, Bucky pulls back up to look at me. His eyes searching my face for an answer.

"Yes. Yes. Yes! Yes! YES!

He smiles down at me weaving his hands through my hair pulling me in for a deep kiss. I feel every inch of him along my body and I push myself up into him. My hands still clutching his dog tags.

He places his forehead on mine before turning onto his back and pulling me into his arms.

He kisses my forehead as I lace our fingers together, " I don't have the ring on me, so I'll have to do the whole get down on a knee thing at a later date, if that's alright with you."

"What do you mean you don't have it on you?" I raise up onto my elbow, my eyebrows pinched in confusion .

"Technically, Sam has it. Down at his family's house in Louisiana, I think." He purses his lips and focuses as if he's trying to remember where he placed his keys or wallet.

"Wait, there's... you have a ring? You planned on proposing?"

"Well, It's my mother's ring.  It's her wedding band, and I thought since she can't be here for this. It would be nice to see you with it. Obviously I had some adjustments made to it, I didn't want to give you just a plain band. But still it was hers, and soon it will be yours."

"I just.. when did you do all of this?"

"About a week after we started dating." He says with a smug look on his face, "I told you, Charlotte. I've always known it was you."

A flock of butterflies release in my stomach and my throat tightens, rendering me speechless. So I kiss him. He pulls me I'm on top of him as we kiss. I try hard to convey my feelings through my kiss since words are failing me.

We break apart and I rest my head against his. He pulls the sheets around my naked body and rests his hands on my hips. Mindlessly stroking my skin with a pleased look on his face.

We stay like this for a long time. His hands gently kneading my thighs. Mine holding his face, my thumbs stroking his cheeks. My entire world. My everything is right here in my hands.

"Penny for your thoughts?" He murmurs against my lips.

"They aren't worth that much."

"They are to me, what's going on in that beautiful brain of yours." His eyes crinkle as he smiles at me. The blues of his eyes sparkling.

"I don't know... a lot. Good things, but there's also some sad feelings. I'm a blend of happy and sad. If that makes sense."

"Sort of. Why are you happy sad?"

"Because all this time you believed in this. In us. That we'd end up together. And I let stupid shit get in the way. I broke your heart. I ruined..."

I shut my eyes tight. I'm trying really hard to hold back the soul crushing sadness that is a deep wound in my heart. Tears spill out of my eyes landing on his face.