Change your life

Katsuki

It's been a total of five weeks since the day we read each others journals. It has been a total of two months since we have been here at the hospital. Over these last three weeks the other four and I exchanged notebooks every Wednesday. We do this so we can get to know each other.

But I have a feeling that it's starting to turn into caring about how the others are feeling and what they are thinking. I don't think that I like the way this whole thing is going. I'm not good with the whole feelings thing. And I'm not good with the whole people actually care about me thing either.

If they actually do care about me I don't know how I would react. I don't know I would react if I actually started to care about them either. This whole thing is honestly very frightening to me. But anyways Deku has continued to visit us daily to keep us company.

Yesterday he got us more notebooks other supplies. So now we have more things to right about. We ended up filling all of the notebooks and journals he gave us the first time. They are filled with things from our past or how we were feeling that day.

To be honest at first I thought writing about my feelings was stupid but it's actually a stress reliever. Currently we were waiting for Dr.Inko and Dr.Nemuri to come change our iv bags seeing as we already showered and everything.

The door revealed Deku in a doctors uniform "good morning boys"Deku said "morning Deku. Why are you wearing a doctors uniform and why are you here early"Shitty hair asked "from here on out I'll be your official doctor meaning you are going to start your rehabilitation"Deku explains

"Rehabilitation"I asked confused "yeah my mother said that your vitals are much stronger now as well as everything so we can officially start rehabilitation"Deku explains "d-does r-that m-mean w-we w-won't b-be getting iv b-bags a-anymore"Dunce face asked

"That's exactly what it means. The nutritionist Jiro and Awase already came up with a meal plan for you. We will be starting off small then working our way up"Deku explains. Solid food huh. I haven't had that in a while.

"What type of food will we be getting and what is the plan for rehabilitation"Shitty hair asked "you will be on the toddlers meal plan then we will work our way up from now. Your bodies need to get used to three meals a day as well as solid food again. We do not want to overwhelm you with a lot so we will be starting off slow"Deku explains

"We're gonna be treated like babies. I guess it can't be helped we did put ourselves in this situation after all"I said with a sigh "I don't believe you intentionally wanted to do it. No one wants death even if they think it's what they want. Death is a scary thing. But we hall have shit going on in our lives. Some worse then others. You can be the happiest person on earth but suffering with depression. You never truly know or understand what a person is going through until it's to late for them to get help. Sometimes in your case it's never to late to get help and get a second chance. But in other case it is to late for that person. So when you get that second chance to get help you must take it"Deku explains

"I-is this your s-second c-chance"Dunce face asked "my case is special. It's my fifth chance at life. And I'm finally living a life that I want. My demons still haunt me. But I've gotten strong enough not to let them overcome me. I have a lot of important people in my life that I don't want to suffer because of me. So I'm not only living for myself. I am living for them as well"Deku explains

"We don't have people like that in our lives"I said "don't worry you'll find them. It just takes time. It took me a while to figure that out for myself. But I eventually did. I know you will. But until then you have me and my mothers"Deku explains with a smile

"Thank you"Kirishima said "no problem. But let's continue. So breakfast will be at eight in the morning. Lunch at twelve. You will have a snack at between two and five. At seven you will have dinner. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday you will be going to physical therapy for an hour. On Mondays and Tuesdays Kaminari, Todoroki, and Shinsou will be going to speech therapy with my mother Dr.Nemuri. On Mondays and Tuesdays Kirishima and Bakugo will be working with my mother Dr.Inko for Anger management. On Wednesday and Thursday you will be have therapy sessions but at different times. On Fridays you will be having group therapy"Deku explains

That is a lot to take in. And a lot of people as well. I don't think I can handle that all at once "don't worry we will be starting off slowly and introducing you to everyone else. We don't want you to be overwhelmed. Which is why we are starting off with physical therapy to introduce you to Iida and Tetsutetsu. You won't be doing anything. They will be talking to you about their past only. They will be giving you an agenda as well"Deku explains

"W-Will y-you b-be t-there w-with u-us a-as w-well"Dunce face asked "yes"I said "it will help to have someone we know there with us first so we can feel comfortable"Shitty hair explains "okay I will"Deku said "so are we going to be getting our food soon. It's almost eight"I asked then said "I'll go check if it's ready I'll be back in a few minutes"Deku said walking out.

I wonder how half n half sounds like as well as insomniac. But everything is starting to change. I don't know if it's a good change. I want it to be a good change but I honestly don't think I deserve to be happy. It's to late for me to be happy.

When I get out of here I'm just going to be back where I was seeing as I have no money because my shitty ass parents took it all. So I won't have anything to go back to. Maybe death would have been better then this to be honest.

End of chapter