Why Me?

~1 Month later, Away on a Run, Return, Negans' Visit, Old Letters & Memories~

~Dallas' POV~

It's been a month since we arrived in Alexandria, and since then things have been great, Carl met someone named Enid and she's a wonderful girl. However she has a hard time staying within the walls, and I know that she and Carl sneak off together once in a while. Judith and Darren are getting along as good as ever, Darren's still protective of her even though she's older than him. He sees it as the guy protects his woman, caveman bullshit if you ask me, but a Dixon move nonetheless. When it comes to Daryl and I things have been hard, he goes on a lot of runs and sometimes I don't know if he'll ever come back. I feel that he and I are growing more and more apart each day, but I know he loves me as I love him, I can see it in his bright Dixon blues, he's just having a hard time showing it now a days. He still thinks we made a mistake in coming here, however I don't think we did, if we hadn't come here, more than likely one of our kids would be gone. I just wish he would see things through my eyes for once, but he's a Dixon and all he sees is what he wants to see. Now when it comes to Negan he visits once a week just to check in, make sure we don't need anything. Daryl thinks I'm blind to it, but I see what Negan's doing, I see his lust for me, I know what he wants. However he's not going to get it, I love my husband and nothing is going to pull us apart, Daryl and I have been through too much. We've lost too much, and love eachother far too much to let someone with a leather jacket and a barbed wire bat come between us. The people here say that Negan always gets what he wants and he'll do whatever it takes to get it, well we'll just have to see about that. I was pulled from my thoughts by Darren running into the bedroom jumping onto the bed, I smiled giving him a hug and kissing his cheek.

"What's up little man?"

"Dad's home."

I smiled, kissing his cheek and letting him go while I got up, throwing my hair in a low messy bun. I pulled out my red and black flannel slipping it over my black tank top, before pulling on my ripped shorts, and above the knee black tie boots. I grabbed my gun putting it in my waist band along with my knives in my boots running outside to see Daryl walking up the street. I smiled as he smiled, shaking his head, I rushed down the street to him, wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. I crashed my lips to his and he smiled into the kiss before pulling away his signature smirk still plastered on his face.

"I'm glad to see you to beautiful, did anything happen while I was away?"

I sighed, jumping down, shaking my head.

"Not really, Negans, been coming around a bit, but other than that nothing, Daryl when is it gonna top? We're safe, we have somewhere we can call home and yet you go out there every chance you get. I miss you, I miss my husband, and Darren misses his dad, you're his best friend and you're not around anymore."

He sighed, shaking his head.

"This life ain't me, it's never been, out there, I feel more at home, hell at the prison I was more at home than here. I don't belong in no white picket fence neighborhood, everyone here knows it, I wish we would leave already."

"Darren loves it here, Judith loves it here, Carl has a girlfriend, he loves it here with her, I love it here..."

He cut me off.

"Why, because of Negan?"

I have him a confused look shaking my head.

"What are you talking about, I love you, I don't want anything to do with Negan, he comes around because he wants to not because I want him to. Not to mention this isn't about Negan, this is about you, this is you not wanting to believe or even think that we can have a normal life with the shit storm that's going on outside those gates. This is you, not me, not Negan, you, I love you Daryl, I'm married to you, figure your shit out, and stop running, come see your son."