Why Me?

~Home, I Love You, Goodbye, Back to Hell~

~Dallas' POV~

As Darren and I walked up to the gate I was struck with sadness, I looked at Darren who shook his head walking into Alexandria. When he saw Daryl he smiled running to him and I knew that in a way they were going to be okay. However when Daryl saw me he knew something was wrong, he ran over to me wrapping me in a tight hug. I pulled away looking at him with slow tears sliding down my face and for the first time in a long time I felt weak.

"Dallas what's wrong?"

"I have to go back."

He shook his head.

"No, I just got ya back how can I let ya go?"

"You don't have a choice, I came to bring Darren home, to tell you both that I love you, I also came to say goodbye. He's going to make me his wife, and when he tries I need you to save me, because I can't be married to another man like my ex. I have no choice, he'll come for me if I stay and he'll kill you and Darren I can't do that, I can't lose you for real, I can't watch him make you walkers."

"Dallas stay, we can protect ya."

"Daryl, please don't make this any harder than it already is, just save me okay."

"He's gonna make you isn't he? Tonight?"

I sighed as tears flowed down my face, I nodded my head.

"Or he'll kill Darren, I can't lose my boy, I already lost one child, my little girl, please don't make me lose him too."

He pulled me into a tight hug placing a kiss on my exposed shoulder.

"Alright, it'll be okay, I love you, and I'll save you, if it's the last thing I do."

I pulled away giving him one last kiss before removing my ring, and his vest, I looked at Carl and Judith.

"Take care of them for me."

They nodded their head and I started my walk out of Alexandria and back to the place I now call Hell on Earth.

~Daryls' POV~

As I watched her walk away I knew it was only a matter of time before I had no choice but to save her. I know that if I don't he'll kill her and I'll lose her forever, that's somethin I know will break me into nothin.

~Negans' POV~

As I watched her walk into the compound I knew that she was broken, I knew that she would do any little thing I asked of her because she has nothing left for me to take other than her body. I do plan on making her my wife and tomorrow happens to be the day I do it, tomorrow I'll give her the ring, I have a priest who will perform the ceremony and girls working on a dress as we speak, she will be the wife I never had.

~Dallas' POV~

As I walked into the compound I went straight to the trailer, I sat there removing my boots, I took off my holsters keeping the guns and knives in their place. I sat there feeling broken and more alone than ever, I knew what was going to happen when Negan walks in, and I knew that all I would feel is numb. I was pulled from my thoughts by Negan walking in, he looked at me and shook his head before coming over holding out his hand. I sighed standing up, he smirked lightly brushing a piece of hair from my face as he looked at me.

"Your eyes seem dull, come on Darlin, give me a smile, make those green eyes bright and vibrant with fight again for me."

I shook my head.

"I don't have it in me anymore, you want me fine, but you'll never have my heart, in my mind at times like this all I see is my ex piece of shit husband that I shot in the head. You want me, fine, but I won't give you what you want, I won't scream your name and pretend, I'm no liar and I'm not gonna start now."

He nodded his head.

"Well then I'm just gonna have to give you enough pleasure to where you're willing and wanting to scream and moan my name."

"You try all you want, but it isn't gonna happen."

With that he lifted me from the ground making me wrap my legs around his waist while he carried me to the bed with his hands holding me up by my ass. I sighed as my back hit the bed and he looked at me with lustful eyes, I looked away while he removed his clothes before he removed mine. When I felt him slip into me I just laid there letting him do as he pleased wishing I were dead. When he was done I rolled over pulling the covers over my body falling into a pain filled lonely sleep hoping death would meet me in the night.