Gorillaz and me (PT 4)

Chapter 10

A month

It's been a while month and nothing. Not a phone call, not a text or message. Nothing even in the post.

Not a sign of Noodle, 2D, Russ, Cy...even Ace. Murdoc had set up his own little thing to help him escape from prison but its not like he would ACTUALLY talk to me. The media wasn't supposed to know. And they didn't.

They seemed happy without me though. I sat on my bed, knees to my chest thinking how...maybe they didn't want me or need me at all. I sniffled a bit feeling my heart sink down as a tear slipped down my cheek.

"Si-Si~"
I hear my mum call from the living room and then open my door. She had obviously gotten home from work early. She was never home early.

My mum got this new job at a café. Real old time like small...working morning and evening shifts. Not that it was a big deal. It's a big step down from her last one. At least shes off the drugs...not so much the booze tho. But i can't blame her.
I lift my head as she opens my bedroom door, her smile fading as she saw my face.
"Awww...Honey face, What's wrong? Did ya miss me that much?"

She walks my way. Her voice all sing-song like. As if she just had the best day ever. I sniffled and looked away.

"It's nothin' mum. How was work?"

Mum let out a sigh and sat next to me.

"This is about the band isn't it?"
I felt her then place a hand on my back.
"Sia lov. I hate to say it but they are a really popular band. They're probably out having the time if their lives, makin' money and who knows what else."

I just gave her a look of disappointment...thinking that she was right. But i didn't want to hear it.
I felt her hand be placed in my cheek as I sniffle.

"Y-Yew don' really think they forgot about me do you?"

Mum brushed a strand of hair behind my ear looking at me with a sad frown.

"Oh, sweets no, they haven't forgotten about you. They love you and will always cherish you."
I then hear her make another sigh as she kissed the top of my head.
"I...I think it's best if I told you straight out. From what that Noodle girl told me over the phone, they just couldn't handle you anymore."

My heart shattered as i heard her say this.
Noodle? How...How could she? How could she say that!? I began to shake and quiver as I bit my lip. I couldn't believe this. Noodle wouldn't say that about me. Would she?
I suppose she was really mad at me and has been for a while.

"Sh-She...she wouldn't."
I shook my head in disbelief.
"She wouldn't say that! Y-You're lying to me again aren't you?"
I felt myself get choked up, finding it hard to breathe.
Mum grabbed my inhaler from my nightstand, handing it to me.

"Love. I'm a changed woman...you know I wouldn't ever lie about somethin' like this. Would I?"
Mum pulled me close into a hug as I began to sob. All i could do was hold her back tightly.
" 'm sorry love...i really am. I didn't want to tell you but. I couldn't just let you believe they were coming back."

I cried heavily as she held me and rocked me back and forth. She shushed me as I shook my head and repeated the same word.

"No...no...no...no..."

I was never gonna see them again. Not ever. They hated me. All because of a daft mistake.

"Hey...it's gonna be alright pet."
She lifts my chin and wipes my face.
"We don't need those low-life cunts in our life anyways do we?"

I sniffled again shaking my head.

"No..."

"That's right. We don't need them. We don't need anybody. Just each other. Right?"
I nodded my head wiping away my tears. Learning the truth hurt but I was quick to accept it. If they hated me...i can hate them just as much.