Deadly silence

long lost love

Today school was finally over and I was heading home already...I closed my locker and started to walk fast cause the hall was already empty...as I walked as fast as I could I was pulled into a corner real hard that I hit my head on the wall and it really hurt a lot...I looked up and saw Heyden and thankfully he wasn't with his friends and not that it was anyway better thou...."ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑐ℎ...𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑝𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡?" He asked grinning.."𝑛𝑜..ℎ𝑒𝑦𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑔𝑜..𝑝𝑙𝑠"i was already tearing up cause the things he does to me hurts a lot.."𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠..𝑖𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑖𝑡"immediately he said this he push me to the ground so hard that i cried out pain "𝑜𝑜𝑝𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠..𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑖 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢"then he came towards me and hit me on the face"𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠...𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑑𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ ℎ𝑒𝑦𝑑𝑒𝑛" i asked desperately wanting to know why he hates me so much that he hurts me. He looked at me with no emotions in the eyes "𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠𝑠...𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢...𝑖 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦"he replied looking me straight in the eyes..yah i forgot some people are just naturally wicked and heartless.."𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢" i said angrily and spat in his face...he looked at me and laughed so hard then he gripped my chin "𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑟" as soon as he said this he moved closer too close if i must say..then i could feel him sucking my neck aggressively "𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔"i asked without getting any response back...he just continued with what he was doing so i became so scared "𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑠-𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝" i started to plead but then he only looked at me and suddenly smashed his lips on my...he was kissing me aggressively and to say it hurts was understatement...i started to push him even thou it was just like pushing rock...he finally let go and i was so out of breath...i didn't even look up at him before running off as fast as i could...when i got out of the school gates i used my hood to cover my face so that no one would notice the tears that was already flowing down my chin.

I was  already half way home when I bumped into somebody..I looked up to see who it was and there he was... then my mind started to flashback..a lot of painful memories started to come back memories I never wanted to remember.. memories I just wanted to be gone forever..

"𝐻𝑖 𝐴𝑛𝑛𝑎" he gave me that innocent looks and that smile i used to love not until all this happened..i turned around trying to avoid him but he held my hand and and drag me back gently.."𝑥𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑤-𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒"i asked trying not sound broken "𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ 𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢" i looked at him"𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒"i shouted "𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒" i was soo angry at the moment "𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦...𝑖 𝑎𝑑𝑚𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑡...𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑐𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑚𝑎 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑠𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑠𝑜 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑝𝑢𝑠ℎ 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑝𝑙𝑠"i could see the sincerity in his eyes but i was't ready for all this and the guilt that washes over me anytime i see him....if not for me his mom would be still be alive and he was my best friend and my ex "𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑝𝑙𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠'𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑢𝑙𝑡....𝑠ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙..."he looked down "𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑖 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑡ℎ 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑛𝑡 𝑎𝑐𝑐𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑖 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢...𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑖 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑝𝑙𝑠...𝑖 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑠𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑓𝑖𝑥 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓...𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑛𝑜 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢" "𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑝𝑙𝑠" tears was flowing down my cheeks "𝑖 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑚𝑎 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛" i looked at him and all of a sudden i hugged him so tight and started to cry on him"𝑖-𝑖 𝑎-𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜 𝑠-𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑥𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟" "𝑖'𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑦-𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎 𝑙-𝑙𝑜𝑡...𝑤-𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑑-𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙-𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑤-𝑤ℎ𝑦𝑦𝑦"...i cried those words out on his chest.."𝑖 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑜 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎...𝑖 𝑎𝑚 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑜𝑤..𝑖 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒""𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑠 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦" with he carried me in a bridal way just like as if i weighed nothing...i buried my face on his chest all through the walk home ...

This was never what i expected but a part of feels complete now that he is here...i hope he would never leave me again