Deadly silence

pains

I was relieved it was the end of school today so I could leave this toxic environment and be at peace with myself. I stood up pack my books inside my bag and was ready to go home

"𝐴𝑛𝑛𝑎" a soft whisper hit my hear, i swallowed and started looking at where the familiar voice was coming from.....ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛.....𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛...before i could think of running i was slammed hard to the locker once again.

"You think you could run away from us" he said, i tried to say something but nothing could come out, i just kept shut cause i was used to all this..the bulling,mocking,pian,cying...i was use to all of it. "𝑃𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦" i pleaded even thou i know it will fall on deaf ears as heyden punched me in my stomach..i fell down to my knees keepng my head low.he bent down to my level then he put his hands on my cheek and me look at him.

"𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑜 𝑑𝑢𝑚𝑏, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤?" He said bur this was not his first time saying it so i was also use to it

"𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑒𝑝𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑐ℎ" he said harshly. His grip tightened which hurt my cheeks and face..he looked back at his friends for a minute then looked back at me.I looked at him with a terrified loom,I was too scared to speak and his friends kept laughing at me for no reason,I didn't like the way they were all looking at me and my body.

"𝑆ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑢𝑙 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑦𝑑𝑒𝑛"one of his friend said and heyden looked directly in my eyes and smirked"𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑦𝑒𝑡 𝑗𝑎𝑘𝑒"my eyes widen as I figured out what they meant even it not now.

"𝑃-𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠 𝑙-𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑔-𝑔𝑜" i said stuttering,tears started to fall without my control. "𝐻-ℎ𝑒𝑦𝑑𝑒𝑛...𝑝-𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠"i begged cause i didn't know what else to do

"𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑠 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑠 𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑛" he said and they all laughed in agreement.he looked at me and licked his lips.then he started to giggle which made shivers run down my spine.

"𝐿𝑒𝑡𝑠 𝑔𝑜 𝑔𝑢𝑦𝑠"was all he said before they all left leaving me to cry out my balls.

After a while of sitting on the floor..i slowly got up weakly and started to walk home with my headphones on.

I got home to meet my mom sleeping on her wheel chair,I walked up to her and tapped her gently "𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑚 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑠" i said softly, she woke up and started to stare at me looking straight into my eyes like as if she was looking into my soul then slowly tears started to build up in her eyes and i could tell the amount of pain she was going through physically and mentally ever since that accident that made us lose dad,my brother and her legs with one of her kidney...it been soo tough for hee "𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔" "𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒...𝑤𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑐𝑡𝑜𝑟" she didn't say anything all she did was to draw me into a tight hug. It felt so warm and good even thou a lot of pains were involved "𝑎𝑚 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡..𝑎𝑚 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠"she finally spoke. "𝑀𝑜𝑚 𝑖𝑡 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒" 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒐𝒎