"Hey, elli wanna go with me to my college on the 14th" Nicole asked me. Bobby is over there, this could be our chance to touch our hands together. To feel each other's hands on our skin. Smelling each other and having it memorized in our brains. The honeymoon phase. The good part. As the person from sex life say love bubble, when it feels like we are the only people in the world every time you look into each others eyes.
"Yeah I would love to, I'll have to ask my people for some money to buy me food and maybe a western carolina sweatshirt" I kind of want to go to western too. I might be able to get into it just for being black its a PWI... yeah just for them to say they're not racist ya know what i mean. Well all colleges have to do that. But especially PWI's. Light bulb I could possibly see bobby. "Heyy so you said your parents are coming with us right"? They instantly responded "yeah in separate vehicles I know you don't like my parents like that.'' Her dad is annoying and a lowkey racist but doesn't tell anybody. He was raised where there were no black people. Like not a single person that's sus as fuck.
"Okay, because I wanna see my online buddy". We're not together yet, he wants to take it slow. Which is understandable, cause ya know commitment is terrifying. "Where is your online buddy?" they ask, I knew where he lived because his location is on snapchat. I know I'm creepy but at least I'm not popping up at his house in the mountains because that's what? A crime, yes."Democrat North Carolina is on the west side of Asheville." I really want to see him. The only thoughts going through my mind is him and I in the woods holding each other like we are Bella and Edward.
His beautiful blue eyes looking back at me. My hands run through his soft hair, his hands around my waist, but I don't get triggered by it. I trust him. I feel comfortable around him. Which is scary, because right when I get comfortable bad things happen, and then I have to block out my emotions all over again, and it's just a big ol mess. But he's different, yeah we met online most people do nowadays.
"We'll see Elliot" I said okay and left them alone for the night. I texted him the good news
'She's going to western carolina' which is near him I think.
"Yeah I'm pretty close to there" he's 1 hour and 12 minutes away from where I will be. That could work maybe. If Nicole wants to drive me for another 1 after driving 4.
"It's all gonna be worth it if we could meet" with a red heart at the end. See he is sweet and adorable.
"I just want to hold you and kiss you. Maybe if I'm not a pussy, I might be a little weirdo and smell you" which is what I do. It's very creepy and weird. "I don't mind much," he says. He says that now but wait till I find out he smells good. That's all imma does is just smell him.
"You can call me Elli if you want make it more feminie than elliot"
My favorite pet name he calls me is love. I don't know why but it just does wonders to me.
The day is the day. Time to meet the boy I've been talking to for a month. I'm really excited and nervous. Men do that to me in general. 4 long hours of listening to uncluttered music.Like i could barely play my music without nicole saying turn it off. That was the annoying part of being on the road with nicole. "Didn't you say you wanted to see your online buddy?" I paused for a second. I didn't think she would want to drive more. "Yes I did. I have his address if you want to go now?" I put the GPS on and we headed off to his house.
We pull up and I get out of the car and call him "hello my love, wanna see your surprise?" he hears him running around his house and he rushes out of the house. "Elli". His voice is a little high pitched which is fine. It doesn't bother me. "Hello darling. Come hug me" he smiles at me "oh I'll do more than that come here" I jog over to him a little like they do in the movies. We were finally in touch. Oh he smelled amazing. I inhaled deeply and he did the same thing to me. "How do I smell bobby?" I asked him, "Amazing, it's reallyalluring." his hands start to roam on my body. I sigh softly. I miss being touched like this.
