Lost One

Is This The End?

Ina's P.O.V.

"I thought the universe and everything in it would die if I opened that book. So that was a lie."

My mother and I haven't been on the best of terms. Well, it's obvious now. I'm talking about back then. Ever since I've regained my memory, I started to question life in general and the bonding moments we shared. Was that all a lie? Just some fabrication of love and everything in-between? She's the "person" that brought me here. Having those experiences, not knowing if they were real or not, was frustrating while irritating at the same time. It can sadden a soft-hearted person. If I didn't have these powers, I'd be just like them or even worse. Who am I kidding? I'm human as well. Sooner or later, it will happen if it's not already happening right now.

Anyway, I regret my decision.

The decision to pick up that book. Looking back at the times, I wish I had the power to not have taken it up. I should have resisted with all my life and non-existent strength to not make that decision.

Was it truly mine? I thought of the not-so-obvious question. From the beginning, I really didn't own it, did I? My body was the perfect example. I popped like a burst balloon filled with water. And was sent flying like a baby bird thrown out of a mother's nest. With my book in hand, I felt like I was invisible. My ignorance of not reading the manual for it made me chuckle. If it had one, I'd probably say "it would be fine, I can come back later if I have done something wrong." There is no coming back from this. Maybe there is. Maybe there isn't. Am I never coming back from this? Will I ever financially recover...ahem, this isn't the time. This is fine, thinking back to a meme on someone sitting inside a house on fire.

I was unprepared from the beginning, having no prior experience with it. But it came so naturally at first, so what was the problem? How do I go from using it to my advantage to it shattering me for within? What is a curse? Is it because of my human mind with those thoughts coming back to me? What was this barrier? Maybe if I woke up earlier in the morning, I wouldn't have been so weak. On that thought, maybe that was the answer. Simple and straightforward one. No need to think so deeply about it.

Feeling sympathetic, maybe she should receive some thanks for this form. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be able to meet Gura, Kiara, Ame and Calli. Gura especially. Both of us had attachments on our body. We both are ocean people even if one of them is human. She is my only competitor in terms of things we have in common, and so, we became siblings even if we had different parents.

The long battle that I'm not sure whether it's over yet, I don't know how we should treat each other. We were different people. If she started treating me like a stranger, I wouldn't complain. My mother killed both of her parents. Even with that, I will feel sad for her not forgiving me, and any wrong situation I cause. Regret is a ticking time bomb. The slower it ticks, the sicker I feel. What is going to happen when it finally explodes?

The time was going to come, along with the pinky promise of ending up in an explosion. Easy, it will end up getting broken.

"Is this the end?"

Looking up at the rain falling from the sky, a lady was standing in front of me, glaring down with no emotions in her eyes.

***

My body flew through the air and landed narrowly in an alleyway. It was narrow, dark and smelled kinda funny. I didn't like the way it smelled, but it's not like I can move my body somewhere else. It wasn't a big deal to say the least, and also the atmosphere was getting damper. I think I can temporarily forget the smell, but that wasn't all that important. It was also dark and quiet.