thanks mark ethan nestor x reader

night changes

when you and ethan pull into the valet he does a cute little jog over to your side of the car and opens the door for you.

"milady"

he does an adorable bow as he puts his hand out for you to grab. the paparazzi eats it up.

"y/n y/n is it true that you and ethan are back on?"
"ethan why were you at y/n's house today?"

ethan puts his hand around your waist and pulls you close as you two smile and just push through the crowd of paparazzi. when you two get to the entrance ethan pulls you in and instead of kissing you two smile and just walk inside. the hostess seats you at the table and hands you menus.

"ethan i'm starvingggg"
"y/nnnnn me tooooo"

you two order and there is an awkward silence.

'this is so fucking awkward. do we talk about this?! ahhh fuck it'

"sooo should we talk about this."
"about what in particular?"
"you and me"
"o-oh uh what do you want to be"
"i don't know"
"what do you mean you don't know? y/n i am in love with you. i never stopped loving you."
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME. YOU LEFT ME ALONE IN A HOSPITAL!"

you slam your hands down on the table and run to the bathroom. you hide in a stall and gather yourself. you walk out and clean yourself up. you walk outside and ethan is still at the table. you take a seat and look at him.

"i'm sorry. that was uncalled for."
"it really isn't. i mean you're not wrong."
"ethan you have to understand how hurt i was. i never wanted kids and i've said it so many times but with you i would've had our baby in a heartbeat. i would have spent the rest of my life with you and everything went wrong and you left when i was at my lowest. you don't understand how much hurt i had to and still have to deal with. i would've given up the world for you and you just let me go. i loved you more than you loved me and i loved you more than i loved myself."

tears start rolling down your face. you quickly wipe your tears and the waiter brings you two your food.

"can i get a double bourbon neat?"

the waiter nods and walks away.

"y/n i'm so sorry. i never even thought about that."
"of course. you don't think. you walked away and it hurted so much and it still hurts now"
"y/n i'm so so sorry. i-"
"shhh we can just eat and go our separate ways. we can just eat in silence."
"no y/n we are finishing this conversation. you are trying to ghost me in real life."
"i mean you ghosted me when our child got got."
"y/n"
"no ethan. that's that."
"no y/n that's not that. you still love me and i still love you. i would never hurt you like that."
"you literally fucking hurt me like that"
"and i'm sorry and if you let me make it up to you i will spend every day making it up to you. i still love you y/n."
"i- i have to think about it but i don't know ethan."
"i just- i just don't get it y/n. why not take a leap with me. you said you would've given everything to me so why don't you just take a little bit of that and just go with it."
"because ethan i just don't want to be hurt like that again."
"y/n i swear on everything i have i will never hurt you like that again."
"ethan don't make promises you can't keep."

you two finish your meal and go back to your house trying to make small talk to fill up the silence. you send him off and plop into bed.

'what the faaakkkkkkk what do i do now'

*a/n i'm sorry if that paragraph to ethan got super real out of nowhere. i'm dealing with some stuff never been pregnant since i never ya know had sex but like the feelings of hurt are there. i cried while writing that lmao. it's been a month but i've been kinda numb and now it all hits.

the tea: this guy played me and i really really liked him and i haven't liked anyone like that since my ex girlfriend played me. here's the tea uhh so we met through mutual friends and we were unofficial for like 6 months then we had a fight because he was flirting with his ex and then he went on his birthday dinner with her because we were in a fight so i called it quits the day after his birthday, as to not ruin it, and he got with a different girl less than a week after. and the worse part is that she's so likeable but also she hasn't taken down pics of her ex literally grabbing her ass on her ig. the guy and i have good mutual friends and i can't tell if they are telling me they aren't a thing because they aren't or because they're trying to spare my feelings.