𝑻𝒂𝒌𝒐𝒕𝒔𝒖𝒃𝒐 {Miya Atsumu}

~𝚃𝚊𝚔𝚘𝚝𝚜𝚞𝚋𝚘-³³

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My eyelids tried to lift, my hands tried to move.
A pungent smell of disinfectant stung my nose, but I couldn't do anything.
Something was hanging on my arm, but I couldn't tell what.
I could only hear distant voices speaking.

"Why didn't he tell her ?" Asked the first voice. "Yet he was with her this morning."

"He didn't tell anyone so I don't think he meant to tell Hina either." Answered the second voice. "But he couldn't have known that Hina would react like that."

"That asshole could have warned her anyway ! He was counting on disappearing without explanation! He's telling you but not her !"

"We're his teammates, it's only fitting that he told us that."

"Don't take his defense Sakusa !"

"I'm not taking his defense Jada ! I'm just telling the truth !"

Jada groaned and I heard a door open.

"Where's Hina ?" Shouted the person who had just entered.

"A little calm Tengoku." Said the woman I recognized as being my coach.

What was she doing there ?

Several attempts later and the discussion of my comrades continuing, my eyes finally opened.

"Karasu !" Bokuto yelled as he ran to my bed.

"Are you doing well ?!" Michi asked following him.

"Stop fucking screaming." I ran my hand over my face and huffed. "What happened ?"

"Call the doctor." Jada said pushing Sakusa towards the door.

"You fell for it after the-."

Bokuto stopped and bowed his head.

"After what Bokuto ?" I did not inquire to ask.

"After Atsumu left." Jada continued, coming back to me.

My blood froze and my fists clenched.
The memories came back one by one.
Atsumu was gone.
He was planning to leave without telling me anything.

Before I could say anything, the doctor came to the room.
The same doctor I had seen a few weeks ago.

"Hello miss. Do you remember me ?"

I nodded, unable to open my mouth or burst into tears.

"What's wrong with her then ?" Michi asked.

The doctor walked over to me and took my temperature before speaking.

"You have Takotsubo syndrome."

I got up on my bed and opened my eyes wide.

"Let me finish before I speak please." She said, pressing on my shoulder to put me back on my bunk properly. "You have transient cardiomyopathy. It's okay, you'll need to rest for two to three weeks."

"I can't ! I have a tournament starting soon ! I have to practice !" I screamed as my coach sighed.

"It's impossible, I'm sorry. Training could cause complications." She consulted a notebook and turned to me again. "Do you know what could have caused this stress ?"

I bowed my head, I knew it. But was I ready to admit it? No.

"If you don't tell me I can't help you." Continued but doctor as if she knew what I was thinking.

"She learned a few weeks ago that someone she loves was going to leave." Bokuto replied in my place.

"Yet I told you to come back and see me if you were not feeling well."

Who could admit feeling bad just because of a little stress.

"We're going to have to keep you in the hospital for a while longer to do some other tests. And after that, it's compulsory rest. I'll be back to see you tomorrow morning."

And she left, leaving us all in that white room with our mouths open.

"Coach ! You can't let her do this ! I have to practice !" I still cried out in shock.

She walked over to me and took my hand in hers and gave me a sad smile.

"I'm sorry Hina but I can't. You need to get some rest. I'd rather see you in better shape for Berlin."

In turn, she left, leaving me no time to be able to say something.

"She's right Hina, you must be in good shape for the internship." Tengoku overbid and my other friends nodded.

And unable to hold myself back, I burst into tears.
Everything was going wrong.

"It's all her fault !" I cried as I gave Michi a hug. "Why did he tell it to you but not to me ? He was counting on you to fucking tell me !"

"He was afraid of your reaction Karasu. He loves you and didn't want to hurt you. He wanted to enjoy with you until the last minute." Tried to reassure me Bokuto.

"Don't stand up for him! He let me fucking collapse on the floor!"

"I'm sorry baby." Kissed me Bokuto.

"Why did he leave earlier when you are still here ?" I asked for Sakusa.

"I don't know either. We were supposed to leave next week but I learned that today too." Kyoomi replied, shrugging his shoulders.

"I hate him. It's all his fault. I hate him." I always repeated, crying.

An hour later, my friends left one by one, the visiting hours being over.

I was alone.
Alone with my demons.
Alone because of him.

I stared at the ceiling, thinking back to all that if had happened in one day.
Atsumu was gone, I was not going to be able to participate in the tournament and I had Broken heart syndrome

I had Takotsubo syndrome.