Why did i start writing this one?
I remember the day when we broke up.
I was so lost, i am really unhappy not because of him, but because how my life is.
I have issues, we should've talked it out
But i chose to keep it to myself
I am a hypocrite who thinks i can save him by letting him go. But the truth is? I didn't. All i am to him was a headache and a heart break.
I'm not happy with how my life was flowing
And i pushed him away and away
I exploded, he's tired
Of course, i don't expect him to fix me
He's human too, he has feelings too
That's why I understand all his outbursts
I understand his anger
I understand his sadness
I understand his anxiousness
I understand that i turned him to someone unrecognizable
I destroyed him
So why did i write all of these now?
Because i miss him
I wanna reach out to him
I wanna fix this, one last time
But i think this through
It's been almost 3 months
And i know maybe it still hurts
But i know he is now healing
Maybe he found someone new
And with me walking back in his life?
Will just destroy him even more.
So, as much as i want him back
I love him so much
That i can't even think of touching him
Because i only bring chaos
And i no longer want to hurt him.
As his last word to me says..
"See yah"
So i wanna see him happy
Not with me
But with someone who can take care of him
Make him the happiest guy
That he will ever be
xo, pug cheeks
