Lovers of Freedom

Chapter 21 + Tom

I woke up with a terrible throat pain and a headache after drinking so much the night before. I was still tired when I opened my eyes. I was just thinking about sleeping more and forgetting about the world, but I stood up and I found myself wanting to live another day.

I was alone in bed, then I decided to change my clothes and I followed some rose petals outside- towards the emergency stairs. Inside me I was slightly excited- maybe this was it: Tom was going to ask me to marry him for real this time.

It was sunny on the roof that morning and there was a layer of melted snow covering the floor. I imagined the winter sun had made it melt onto that unappealing puddle. I was supposed to be surprised but I wasn't, I had a terrible headache that morning, and I just wanted to go back to bed.

Tom appeared behind me, he was wearing a black coat and a white wholly jumper and he smelled nice. I moved towards the table he had set up and I wasn't in the mood to be asked to be a wife. It was a perfect set up you know! Flowers, food, tea. A gorgeous man looking at me as if I was the only existing thing in the planet, but I couldn't allow me to be happy after doing whatever I had done in life. I was not my father, but I might as well be. I wanted to fuck Nikolaus that night, and I would have done it easily. Maybe I was not meant to be with anybody. In reality I am who I am, and there is nothing...

"Annie, what happened yesterday?" he asked, breaking the ice. I looked towards him, I was still going through my whole self-destruction in my head.

"I was with Nikolaus." I said, there was no more lying between us now, I think.

"Did you fuck him?" Tom replied. I couldn't read his expression, but I knew exactly what he was thinking. Eres una zorra.

"What do you think?" I asked him, Tom stood up and he swiped his arms across the table shoving everything on the floor.

"FUCK!" he yelled, I jumped from my seat scared, I had never seen such reaction from him.

"Nothing happened between us!" I yelled back, and honestly, you know it is the truth.

"Yeah sure, you wanted to believe you after everything Annie!?" Tom said threateningly as he approached me. I stepped back, and I knew if I moved any further I would probably fall to my death, probably I deserved it. However, Tom just kissed me, confusing me to death.

I kissed him back and Tom caressed my stomach, he pulled me towards him and suddenly there is music. We start dancing together, and for the very first time I realise how much of a good dancer he is. Tom was angry, but he still kissed me. My sweet and wild man. I was all his. We ended up in bed having wild sex.

"So I met Niko by accident and he invited us for dinner. I told him I was with you, but for some weird reason I decided that I should go to see him, however, I couldn't do it you know...I wouldn't have hesitated in the past to do it..."

"What didn't you do?" Asked Tom caressing my naked shoulders.

"Have sex with him...I thought I would but nothing happened. I love you..." I said, Tom puts his finger in my mouth and whispers "Shhh, I love you too" Tom kissed me softly. I break inside. Nothing would make this man leave my side, would it?

His soft tongue caressed mine, again I feel like I am going to break onto a million pieces. Tom pulls my head backwards and he stars kissing my face and then my body. His nipple kisses were the best. I felt the passion brewing inside me. The intensity rose as I realised I was hungry for him again. I was the void and he was the light at the end of the void. He grabs my face strongly and makes me suck two of his fingers carefully.

"That's right Annie, I like that..." he said. I took control after that and I rode him once again. Passion was us. I am not sure how much sex we had in Paris, but for both of us it was an out of body experience. It was the kind of lovemaking you only gain once in life, and I had it with him. Thomas Houben. Tom held my waist as we approached the millionth orgasm and we just released. This was everything, it was the moment I could die. I stayed alive though.