Forever Unrequited || A Collection From My Diary

Sincerely Yours,

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I once too,
Had a man
That loved me.

He adored me
all of me.

He cared for me,
Encouraged me,
And most importantly
He respected me.

All of me.

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But, I
Pushed him away.

I didn't understand
Why anyone would love me
I didn't understand
Why he would chose me
Over everyone else...

Why me?

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I was insecure.
I couldn't love myself.
I was broken
So I broke him too...
Without knowing

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I'm sorry
I know what it feels like now.

To love someone
As insecure as I was,

To love someone
Who never had loved himself.

To love someone
As broken.

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To that boy
I wish to tell you.
That I did love you
In my own way.

And my intention
Was never to hurt you.
Or play games.

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And to the man I love now
I saw your pain
On the first few days
I met you
And I still see it today.

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I'm sorry you
Felt like I wasn't the type of woman
You could be yourself with.

I'm sorry you
Got intimidated and
Couldn't open up with me.

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But, I hope oneday, you'd achieve
All your hopes and dreams.
I hope oneday, you'd
Make it to your dream country
And land your dream job.

But I hope you also learn.

I hope you learn that
No matter how far one travels
Our past will eventually catch up to us,
To haunt us.

I hope you learn that
control is only an illusion,
It won't take our pain away.

Filling up our calendars
From working out to extra jobs,
May make us healthy and a little richer
But, it won't create lasting happiness.

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I've learnt that the hard way.
But, I hope you won't.

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Sincerely Yours,