That One Day

Chapter 34 Leaving and Letter

I sat there I didn't leave the house all I did was sit in the living room sulking "you have to eat Blossom" I shake my head "I'm not hungry right now" Skyler sighs "you must.... I bought you a plane ticket back to New York" "why?" "Because I'm not gonna watch you sulk here everyday see your family too you need to get away" I sigh and walk to my room and pack everything. I unlock the door to a familiar house mine I haven't been here in a while since tour it's still the way I left it I smile of all the memories but frown at the memories of the boys and Ash he is the only thing I can think about I love him but he doesn't love me I shake the thoughts out of my head "I have to stop thinking about him..." I take a deep breathe I see a lot of mail but one stands out the most I open the envelope i should have made them stay longer I cry as I read the letter.
Dear Blossom,
I don't know when you will read this but I hope Ashton is there to comfort you... in writing a letter to you cause I'm only aloud to write you a letter before we die either it was us or you and everyone else... so we chose for us to die. I remember when we were little and you always used to dream of become famous with your friends you always tapped your fingers to make a beat but all that tapping your fingers became a talent and your dream came true I always looked up to you big sister I hope you know that I might have been mean and said I hated you sometimes but you and everyone else meant the world to me but now that I'm gone (if) then I don't want you to cry I want you to be happy with Ashton and be happy with your friends Joseph and me are proud of you. We love you.
Sincerely,
Your younger brothers,
Alex and Joseph
I felt myself cry again but instead I scream, scream as loud as I can and I want to hit something I want to be comforted I wish I could have saved them why didn't she kill me instead why them they need to be alive I need them to be alive.... why am I still alive? I go to the bathroom and look at myself I look like a mess I look like I haven't slept in days so I go to the kitchen and write a letter to everyone and send them out Ill leave on Monday.
Ashton POV.
One Day earlier
"She went back to New York?" Skyler sighs "I'm sorry I didn't know that SHE kissed you..." I grab my phone "what are you doing Ash?" "Booking a flight to New York" "ok" her phone rings and her expression turns serious as she looks up at me she looks like she's on the verge of tears "what's wrong?" "she's going to commit suicide".
Blossom POV.
Present/right now
I just cried reading the letter over and over again I could have saved them I could have been there for them I could have came home with them I should have been the one who dies I stand there I set it on the table and walk to the bathroom trying to open the bottle of pills I'm having a hard time I hear someone call my name I try to open the bottle I tried and tried I drop the bottle as someone wraps their arms around my waist I'm crying and screaming "no...no I should h-h-ha-have died" I cry hard as the person holds me closer they are stronger than me I start to just fall to the floor so the person just sits down and hugs me tight to them.