EASILY

3

I Feel Something

I've been unemployed for 5 days now, Hwasa has been a godsend, she will come over every night after work to keep me company, and keep me sane. I had a breakdown on Wednesday night as I was opening my mail and was bombarded with bills. Hwasa sat and held me as I cried, which was super embarrassing. I'm pretty sure I drank a bottle of wine that night by myself. I woke up the next morning tucked in bed with a note from Hwasa, saying that she would call me on her lunch to check on me.

She bought me like $200 worth of food, which she was claiming was to help me teach her to cook, but I know she bought it so I wouldn't have to worry about groceries. So, after we unloaded all the groceries and put everything up I hugged her tightly as a silent thank you. Hwasa and I aren't big on talking about feelings and stuff like that so I didn't want to make the situation awkward. During our cooking lessons, we would sip wine and bash my co-workers, well former co-workers. It was actually pretty therapeutic.

Loco is coming back in town this weekend, so I won't have Hwasa to keep me entertained and keeps my mind from wandering to the pits. Which kind of worries me, but I'm a pretty centralized and balanced person.

So, here it is Friday morning and I'm wide awake, my internal alarm clock still thinks I work, and I wake up at 6 am faithfully. Which is crazy, because when I was working, waking up at 6am was a struggle. I've been checking my phone like crazy but I still haven't heard from Moonbyul. Maybe she was a dream. No, she was definitely real; the way I feel around her is more than real. My cheek still faintly tingles from where she kissed me. I mean she is kind of ditzy, so maybe she forgot to call me, or thought she did.

The past couple days I went to the park around the same time I first met her, but she hasn't been there. I don't know why I expected her to be there but it was worth a shot, right? I would sit in the park for an hour hoping to catch a glimpse of her, before walking by the diner she pointed at, the one she said she worked at. I would peep in the window to see if she was in there, but I started to feel like a creep so I stopped doing that.

Today I'm not going to think about Moonbyul, it's decided. I actually have a full day ahead of me. I plan on watching trashy K-dramas on TV, meeting Hwasa for lunch at 1pm, and then having a candlelit dinner while watching a bunch of sappy rom com movies, yes I'm taking myself on a date. I close my eyes to try to go back to sleep but all I see is Moonbyul's face, her cute cheeks, and I hear that adorable giggle resonate through my ears. Fuck this, I'm going for a run.

I hop in the shower and throw on some leggings, a thermal undershirt, and a t-shirt over it. I wrap a scarf around my neck, and lace up my sneakers. I slip my credit card in my iPod armband and zip my phone up in my t-shirt pocket and head out the door.

As soon as I walk outside, I realize it's a little colder than I thought, and decided maybe I don't feel like running after all. I start walking to the convenience store at the corner to grab a granola bar, and shit there's Moonbyul. She's sitting on the steps holding her cat. Oh my God, is she homeless?! No, she can't be she used a credit card to buy my books.

I take my earbuds out and walk over to her. "Hey, stranger," I tease her with a smile and a small wave.

She looks up and smiles brightly. "Yongsun!" She then looks down at the cat. "Say hello to, Yongsun Mr. Ggomo, don't be rude."

I laugh at her for scolding her cat and sit down next to her on the step. "How have you been? I haven't seen you in a while or talked to you," I ask carefully.

"Oh yeah, I changed my password on my phone to your birthday, but then I forgot the password so now I can't use my phone," She replies with a confused look on her face. She reaches in her pocket and hands me her phone. "Can you type your birthday in to unlock it?"