I'm sorry Brother

Food

Since I woke up it have been 2 hours
Ofcourse not real time since I didn't have a clock when I woke up I made myself my own time system

My stomach started to hurt badly
And I swear I could hear it twist inside me
I needed to eat
But what could I eat there was nothing here

I was in deep thoughts when I noticed I was just walking in a random direction
I have no idea where I am
Everything could easily kill me
Kill...

Then pain in my stomach
"Fuck I need to eat "
I look around...
South nothing...
North nothing....
East nothing....
West not-...
A Berry Bush with a rabbit eating them
I have one chance
I take the gun from my back
I aim it at the small creature...
One shot...
One chance...
One meal...
Then Bang

It's dead
I killed it
With my stomach grumbling again
I run over to the dead rabbit
Then pull out my knife-
My knife ...
Gone...
Shit I must have left it but from where did I come from...

It hurts again
I can't stand the pain anymore
I grab a sharp stone from the ground
Without a second thought I slice the rabbits back open
Blood Now everywhere
One bite...
Two bites...
Three bites...

My teeth were bloody
My the area around my mouth covered on blood
If you would see me you would think I'm crazy
But I'm NOT!

Out of the corner of my eye I could see something hush behind the nearest tree but I didn't care anymore

I put my finger in some of the blood that was still leaking out of the bunny's corpse
Now drawing the symbol  that I oh so love on the nearest tree

Mother told me the symbol was useless and means something in the lines of weak but I never cared it was beautiful to me

My symbol now...

What came over me there again. I always had this wierd moments were I become weirdly obsessed with objects.
Hehe...
That was the reason I had to go to a camp one summer facation
Whole 6 weeks of me sitting there acting normal.

I am getting lost in my thoughts again
I pick up my gun and continue to walk

All of this didn't seem wierd to my all of this seemed normal
Me breaking out of an asylum...
Killing a hunter...
Burning his corpse...
And now eating a rabbit...

How was I always mother's favourite child?
Oh if she could see me...

I'm sorry mother,father and u too Lu

Now I have been walking for 3 of my made up hours
My legs don't hurt...
I'm not tired...
Was a meal really needed that much ?
I couldn't care less I had a meal now
As I sit down underneath one of the smaller trees I noticed a bird
Black fethers...
A crow...
Luci loved them...
I adore sheep's and rams more
They remind me of myself...
Soft wool but not afraid to attack if their child is in danger

I was so lost I my thoughts again for the third time I don't even see the crow jumping towards me
"Hello"
O God I'm talking to a crow now

Then it flew away...
I was to loud

That made me stand up and continue walking to find what ?
I don't even really know anymore I just want to find a place to stay...

2 more hours of walking
I come across a huge field of flowers
The sun shining
Absolutely no tree stud here
Fascinating...
I start to walk across the flower field then...

Baah

Sheep...
I turn around a sheep standing behind me just looking at me with big eyes
" eh hello there friend "
Baaaah
"U like the word friend eh ?"
Baah
I sat down in front of the sheep
It imidily layed itself on my lap
I didn't mind it felt nice to have company...
So I lay down in the flowers
The sheep moving next to me with its head on my chest I fall asleep...
Peaceful at last...

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Sry that all the chapters previously where written by my friend I had no idea what to write
But we'll
Have a nice morning/day/evening
-Mao