I impatiently tapped the table with my fingers. I let out a long sigh and glance again on my wristwatch. Few more minutes before the first period end. Naiinis na tumingin ako sa pinto pero wala pa ring ash-blonde na kumakatok dito.
Nakauwi naman sya ng maayos diba?
She didn't reply in my email last night. I don't even know if nabasa nya yun.
She's frustrating me.
Kahit madalas siyang malate bihira siyang umabsent. What's wrong then?
Muli akong napabuntong hininga at binalik ang atensyon sa teacher na nagsasalita sa harap pero kahit anong pilit ko tumatagos lang ang bawat salitang binitawan nito. At tila bumabagal ang takbo ng oras.
It's frustrating me more.
I sighed heavily, ang dami ko nang iniisip dumagdag pa 'tong dalawa. Sumandal ako ng upuan at mariin silang tiningnan. Kanina pa sila panakaw nakaw ng tingin sakin saka magbubulungan. They are the weirdest, I swear.
"Stop it you two and just tell me what it is?" naaasar na anas ko nang magtulukan sila.
Napahilot ako ng sintido dahil sumasabay ang ingay ng cafeteria sa sakit ng ulong binibigay nitong dalawa.
"We are friends right?" Kate asked weirdly. "We know it each other simula first year kaya alam natin kung may problema ang isa satin"
I took a sip from my glass. I don't know where this is going. May problema ba ang isa sa kanila?
"And?" I impatiently asked.
"We know that there's something bothering you" diretsong sagot ni Gail. "You're so distracted inside the class. You kept glancing at your watch and at the door"
Hindi agad ako nakasagot. I don't know how to tell them about Silvera. What I'm supposed to say? That she didn't reply in my email? That I'm wondering why she's absent today? That I'm worried if she went home safe last night?
That's total crap. Magtatanong at mangungulit lang sila. Worst, ipagpipilitan nilang may gusto ako kay Silvera. Which is a BIG LIE.
Really? Who's the one lying now?
Oh c'mon. Hindi porke't naging civil ako kahapon sa kanya ibig sabihin gusto ko na sya. I just. . .
Whatever!
I heaved a sigh. Yesterday, ibang Silvera ang kaharap ko, she's confusing me. Tumingin ako sa dalawang kong kaibigan na ngayon ay naghihintay ng sasabihin ko.
"Say, guys" I started. "How do you see Silvera?"
"So this is about her?" nakataas na kilay na tanong ni Gail.
I chose to stay silent. Bahala na siya sa gusto niyang isipin. I just want to know their answer.
"You want an honest answer right?" she inquired before she sigh like she's about to explain her essay in front of the class. "She's one of the faces here in campus for a reason, she's smart, approachable sa kabila ng pagiging introverted niya. She's someone you would want to admire from afar"
I felt something missing in her words. She's only describing her base sa ipinapakita ni Silvera. It's all about the good cover, how about the things behind those mask? It can't only be the good things, how about the ugly part? Everyone flawed, and Silvera is not an exception.
"You seem not satisfied Deen, what is this all about?" tanong ni Kate.
"It's nothing"
"Don't lie to us" Gail retorted.
BINABASA MO ANG
Never Thought of Dating Your Nemesis?
Teen Fiction"All she wanted was for someone to look at her and see the person she hide so well"
