Light the world

Chapter 4

I slammed the door open and walked through the kitchen where the kettle on the stove was still whistling other than that there was no noise in the house.I wonder where Paula has gone..

I was still furious with the beach incident but I didn’t want to tell Paula about it otherwise she will get all worried and upset and won’t leave the issue till that beach guy came and apologized to me.Now I’m eighteen I shouldn’t run with my problems to someone I need to deal with them on my own.

Speaking about problems I had one more. I was going to apply for my scholarship in the London academy of music and dramatic arts best know as LAMDA for an acting career that  I wanted to pursue from when I was twelve.LAMDA is one of the top five best schools in London for dramatics,being one of the best it is difficult to get in.Especially for someone like me from LittleHampton beach some small country side its going to be very tough. So for my scholarship I needed to get my profile ready.I have been working on it for months now but still the list of  requirements for this  school is well pretty much longer than I thought it would be.

Singing was one of the must and that has been one of the only things I could do in that long list. Miss Avon remember our neighbour ? yes she trained me to sing from when I first came to Paula’s house.Second on the list was to perform a play from the 18th century...

You must know that being blind has deprived me of all the pleasures and opportunity. Being blind I couldn’t see movies , read the books I  wanted to read, see plays,

I couldn’t even take part in plays as I was blind....

Paula always read out to me many classics especially Jane Austen ‘Pride and Prejudice’.That was one book I loved so much and I still love.Any day I was upset or happy I would ask Paula to read Pride and Prejudice to me.I loved that book so much that after so much years of hearing that story I have memorized every dialogue of Elizabeth Bennet my favourite character. I used to enact Elizabeth’s role in front of Paula and she would always say ‘Lia there is no one else who can play Elizabeth Bennet as good as you’I never knew how my acting would be because neither have I ever stood in front of the mirror and seen myself act nor will I ever..If you know what I mean.Paula would also correct my  mistakes at the same time.All this is of less importance I am still an amateur or even less than an amateur.So that leaves me with the biggest and the deepest hole in my profile I don’t act I am not professionally trained and I have not taken part in any plays in my life but I still want to pursue acting. The last movie I ever saw in my life was on my seventh birthday after that it has always been just hearing dialogues of movies when Paula and I watched our sunday afternoon movies.

I still want to pursue acting because Paula always told me that ‘Don’t let your dreams fade away just because you are blind, show the world that you can achieve your dreams,if you do then the world won’t see you as a blind girl but will appreciate you as an achiever.‘This is one reason I still believe I will be the actress I want to be in future.

Since most of my life I have spent my movie experience just by listening to the  dialogues my conclusion on a good actor would be the one who can make you feel the character,the virtues,the emotions of a character by his/her voice.

The actor has understood his part in the drama only if he can express the role through his voice. 

So for me my voice is the most powerful weapon ,the only way I can become an actress.Paula strongly supported my view on the powerful weapon for acting being the voice.

That is why Paula never interrupted me in my voice sessions with Mrs Avon but I knew she had something against Mrs Avon Parker....

So coming back to my problem I have decided to take up an acting course in the institute of dramatics, its like a training school for beginner actors like me,but  this school is in emerald fields 8 miles away from LittleHampton. Ever since I arrived at LittleHampton beach when I was seven I haven’t left it I haven’t gone beyond its boundaries ever.So there lies the problem when I tell Paula that I have to leave LittleHampton she will resist,she wont agree, she thinks twice to send me outside to the beach and this is 8 miles out of town!So if she doesn’t let me go then that may lead me not to get a scholarship in LAMDA.

Paula and me haven’t had a talk about my profession she doesn’t know I want to go to London nor does she know about the acting course I’m going to take,so I have chosen this very day to break the news to her.I went to the beach today to think about the decision I had made but that turned out to be bad because of that stupid guy who yelled at me.

So engrossed in my thought I tripped over something heavy and fell flat on my face.

That was weird I thought, in Paula’s house nothing was on the walking path because Paula knew I would trip if anything would be there at all on the path.

Anyway I got up and retraced to find what was on the way probably Paula had put something on the path absentmindedly, she was acting quite weird today morning she didn’t seem alright.

When I traced back feeling what it was my heart jumped out and I had chills of shiver run down my spine because....

I didn’t trip over something, I tripped over SOMEONE.....