Philophobia

#1

a fear of falling in love 

Taehyung walks mindlessly in the city. It is already noon, but still, he doesn't want to go back to the company. The sun shines brightly like it is mocking him. And how the roads are full of couples, it is like hell to him. He hates it. He wants to be with someone too. Someone whose hand he can hold in the middle of a busy street. Not just someone, but someone he truly loves. That particular one who chooses Namjoon over him. He knows that the girl loves Namjoon deeply. He always knows it. Yet he refuses to acknowledge it. He thought that if he stays with her by her side, she will reciprocate his feelings. But it is just a mere hope. Love is not that simple.

His phone vibrates inside his pocket. He looks at it only to find Jimin is calling him. "What do you want, chim?" He then moves to the sidewalk, to take the call. His back leans onto a brick wall.

"Hello to you too. Where the fuck are you? The meeting is in 5 minutes, you know!" Jimin yells from the telephone. Taehyung taps his foot impatiently, waiting for Jimin to stop his blabbering. "Just come here fast!"

Taehyung interrupts, "I am not coming."

There is silence on the phone and when Taehyung wants to turn his phone off, Jimin yells again. "Are you crazy? The meeting is about our mission in Hawaii. All of the agents who worked in it must be present. Our boss and that girl are gonna ask me about you."

Taehyung can feel his heart stop for a bit after hearing about that girl. The girl he loves. But still, he doesn't want to meet her. He is not ready. She will be together with Namjoon in the meeting. A sight he never wants to see. "Just act like you don't know anything! I am hanging up!" Taehyung hangs up before Jimin replies back. He then turns his phone off and puts it again inside his pocket.

Yes, he thinks that it is not professional for him to avoid Namjoon and the girl. He doesn't hate them, Hell no. Namjoon is one of his best friends and so does she. But he still needs a moment to mourn, to finally moving on. He sighs and walks again. His stomach grumbles. He hasn't eaten anything since yesterday. He doesn't even believe it himself. He thinks that only women will have anorexic as a breakup phase. But it seems, losing appetite applied for every human being who is brokenhearted.

His feet stop in front of a small bakery. It has a pink color outside and yellow inside, a rare combination since some people think that pink is not an appetizing color. He decides to buy some bread and eat it in the park, he is not in the mood of any rice right now. He just needs something to fill his empty stomach. The bell in the door rings as he opens it.

He is welcomed by delicious smells of freshly-baked bread. He takes a tray and walks around. Somehow the smells make his stomach growls even louder. After many considerations, he chooses a bread with red bean paste and butter and also an egg sandwich. He also takes a coke from the chiller and walks to the cashier.

He puts the tray in the cashier and his eyes wandering around the small bakery. The bakery itself is cozy, with some corners full of cute photo spots. There is only some seating area in front of the cashier. Taehyung is nodding at the rhythm of the music when his eyes dart at a little placard with a hand-written scribble beside the cashier.

Girls get 50% off

Taehyung frowns his brows and asks. "Why do only girls get 50% off?"

The girl raises her head. "Because all men are trash." she replied dryly.

Taehyung gawks with that sudden explanation. "I'm sorry, what?"

Just before she answers anything to the taehyung , someone hits her head. "Hani do you have a death wish?" she touches her head and look at another girl, Hani, who holds a rolling pin in her hand.

Hani then grabs the placard and tears it into pieces. "How many times did I tell you not to use this stupid 'girl only'? Yah Dahyun want us to go bankrupt?" She then throws it into the trash can. Hani turns to the man in the suit in front of them. "I am really sorry sir."

"Why? I said the truth!" she shrugged. Hani then glares at her, which shuts her up. "Fine. You handle this then." she then walked back, to the kitchen, while Hani handles the cashier.

Taehyung is flabbergasted. His eyes following her back. What a weird girl. "So, how much?"

Hani then smiles, "2700 won. Would you want to pay with cash or card?" Taehyung gives her an exact amount. "Oh, this is a free cookie for you. It's a new recipe."

Taehyung takes the paper bag and nods politely. "Thank you."

"Thank you! Please come again!" 

"You Dumbfuck we almost didnt get an order" She yells to the girl as Taehyung walks out of the door. He can hear how the weird girl is being yelled at. Somehow he finds it amusing and funny, not at all weird.

He walks to the nearby park and sits on the bench. He puts the paper bag beside him. He looks at the bag. "Moo Moo Bake Shop". A weird name for a bakery. It should be used for an Ice Cream parlor or that kind of stuff, but instead, they use it in a goddamn bakery. Well, not only the people working there are weirdos, the bakery itself is weird too.

He chuckles. Taehyung loves unusual stuff. He was once scolded by the higher-ups when he showed up in the Company in a pajama set and the other time in a suit with some doodles on the back. It is just his fashion sense, and everybody in the Company just looked at him like he was crazy. Why can't he be the unique one? It's not that he bothers anyone with his habit nor his fashion sense. He opens the sandwich first and bites it. Not bad. Maybe he will come to that weird bakery again.