Philophobia

#2

"What the fuck, Dahyun? You almost scared him away!" Hani yells at me. She puts her hand on her hips. It may be the fifth time she yelled at you about this, this week.

I shrug. "So what? That is my intention anyway." I open the kitchen cabinet and pull out a sack of flour, chocolates, caramel, and a bottle of peanut butter.

She pinches the bridge of her nose. "He just wanted to buy some bread for god sakes. Not making a move at you!"

I look away and walk to the kitchen island to make another batch of cookies. "Men still are trash." I say as i my roll my eyes.

Hani just shakes her head. "Not all men are trash."

"They are!" I yell back. "You lucky you found a good one."

"Enough with the stubbornness!" She sighs. "Fine then, just think like that. But don't you ever put that placard again! People would think that this bakery is a lesbian crib, you idiot." Hani stomps her foot to the front, leaving me alone in the kitchen.

I sigh. I hope I am a lesbian, maybe It's just better that way. I begin to measure the cookie ingredients. My mind wanders freely as your hands work. You have done this for almost 5 years now, and you can measure a basic cookie dough subconsciously.

It's because of Jaebeom 

It was maybe the lowest point in your life. You found Jaebeom naked in the bed with your college friend who you thought was your best friend. But frankly, she was just a bitch. Jaebeom was your boyfriend for 3 years, you dated him in the last year of high school. He was kind, handsome, and smart, basically a grade-A boyfriend. You thought you were blessed for having a nice boyfriend. You gave all of you to him. But apparently, he cheated you all the time in your relationship. For 3 fucking years.

I am  glad that i have a nice family and friends to help you through it. I cried, starved myself, and did not take a bath for weeks in your break up. Hani is one of my friends that supported me in that hard time. Instead of just depressed and sad, she helped you move on. She was the one who printed huge ass banners that said 'Jaebeom got Diarrhea' with his photo and stuck it on every surface in your college. It probably cost you some dates but you were happy and satisfied. I was relieved that i got out of that unhealthy relationship. But still, i despise all of the men in this world.

I studied hard after that, took patisserie classes, not bothered by guys and dating. I got on my feet and finally, opened a bakery in the middle of the city with your best friend. It is like a successful revenge. Even that jerk ruined your life, you still have your best friend and a great job that you have always dreamt of.

I always loved baking since i was a little kid. i loved the moment when we wait in front of the oven. absolutely love to see how all the raw ingredients turn into an edible one. And i love to give my food to people and love seeing their reaction. There was even a time when i made a bread with a miso paste fillings. It was a horrible combination that made Hani and my family throw up. But i love trying new things, or just watching them trying your disgusting food.

I snapped back from my thoughts and put the cookies in the oven. This time we made a batch of sumbitches, cookies filled with peanut butter, chocolate, and caramel. It is our bakery's special and most favorite one because your customers are mostly girls. Who says that the girls need love? Well, who needs love if you can eat chewy, sweet, salty, and crunchy fresh baked cookies while watching Netflix?