Diary of a Lesbian

entry 1

30.7.21

So I have been with my girlfriend for almost 3 months now and it's been well. She is so amazing she is at the moment been taking care of me as I have had a migraine so I can't really do much. She suggested to me to start writing down how I am feeling as I suffer from PSTD so sometimes I just feel down. So lately we have a friend and it is starting to get me down with how he's treating both me and my girlfriend. Like people think I don't go out much well there had been a reason for that as I have been feeling depressed and not sleeping recently. This has been happening as for I have been struggling with family problems and I don't really know how to word it properly but I try my hardest to talk to my girlfriend about it. I see my girlfriend's best friend as my own friend as we have been living together for a while now so I could get out of care as my own mother gave me up nearly 4 years ago now so I still struggle with seeing them as my mum kept my two half brothers which I see as that's fair but I love my little brother. So it's just to difficult for me to accept that she didn't want to keep me.

Being in care though taught me a few things. Some of which are not to let anyone ever walk over you. You should always treat people the way you want to be treated but when I was in care it was the other way I treated everyone so nicely and then everyone just back stabbed me in the back and while I wasn't home the room mates broke into my room and destroyed everything but I got over it as everything is replaceable but people aren't. 

So in summary me and my girlfriend have got some fun planned for next week as me and her would be together for 3 months and me and her friend have become friends which I love and I'm trying to help whenever I can

Thanx for reading
Cassandra