sequel to kidnapped for love

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kaylas POV
the next day in july

"so you gon tell me" isaiah said

"i found out kaleb died on christmas. it's been fucking with me and i don't know why. i guess because i felt bad for moving on so fast.

plus my emotions been all over the place cause i'm pregnant but i don't know" i said

i looked over at him and he was just looking out the window.

"i'm sorry ... i know y'all was close but you gotta calm allat down cause that first day ... you starved ya self you can't be hurting ya self nor our baby"

"you don't understand how depression works" i said

"don't tell me i don't understand cause i do. just cause ima gu-"

"see ian even say allat" i said cutting him off

now he wanna yell at me for opening up. then wonder why ion do it.

"like i was saying. just cause ima guy don't mean ion get depressed. every time i fucked up with us i fell right back into it. maybe that whole first year you left i was depressed" he said

"so don't tell me ion understand ... cause i do. but it's hurting me seeing you so fucked up over yo ex. you know damn well if it was me in yo shoes you'd be a little upset right" he asked

i slowly nodded my head

"exactly kayla. i've been working on myself and trying for me you and avi and our unborn little girl. you don't know what you want" he said making me look at him.

"what makes you say that" i said

"because if kaleb could come back alive right now you'd go back to him" he said

"that's no t-"

"it is he's been gone for a whole 7 months and you still letting it bother you every now and then."

"you said you felt guilty. i don't know i just want you to know what you want okay? i didn't mean for this go come off bad but .. you really gotta fight through this"

"i'm not saying don't grieve but you gotta bounce back like i said you hurting ya self and everyone else" he said before walking out

i sighed. i didn't know what to think. i really think it's just grief but he was right. i shouldn't have moved on if i was still in love with him. and it has been 7 months. i gotta work on myself.

i wasn't as bad as when i first got the news but i be in my head a lot still

next week.

my baby shower was today. i was flat ironing my hair again. i don't know if i'll ever let my hair grow out again.

i shrugged answering my ringing phone

"what" i said

"chile please tell me ya dressed" i heard lea say

"yes i'm sliding my slides on now and grabbing avi"i said grabbing my purse

"okay see you there" she said hanging up

i put the phone in my purse

"come on avi you can play it in the car" i said

he reached for me to pick him up.

"i cant i'm already holding on you remember" i said

he nodded rubbing my belly we went downstairs with isaiah and he put him in the car.

i put the address in his phone and that's where we went. he held my hand as he drove. i kinda felt bad because i was in love with 2 people at one time. and he really has made an effort for me.