Tony Stark Imagines

She Is Perfect, Not Me (💔)

Summary: Sometimes you feel you don't deserve somebody, but it somehow returns back to you.. because you do deserve it?

Warnings: Angst, mentions of jealousy, heartbreak, insecurity, panic attacks but fluff for you all in the end ♡

Word Count: 2,591
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Your POV

I have a crush on Tony Stark, yes.

The man who I find to be my one and only, but.. the thing is, I haven't told him about my true feelings yet. He totally gives me butterflies, the share of comfort and pain, as if we can together fix our lives.

The way he hugs me. Comforts me. Cherishes me. I really love him, I damn do. But, there was one thing that always came in my way.

It was her. Pepper Potts.

She was always with Tony's side no matter what. As an assistant, and maybe soon, as a lover and then a happy married wife. I wasn't mad at her, but why this jealousy? Why this pain and torture? The moment I see her talking with Tony, and they laugh as they enjoy with each other..

I feel, more worthless.. more broken.. I imagine if that is me who's talking with him and not her. Maybe I wasn't meant for him and I'm just feeling all like this. This is just my obsession, yes Y/N. Just an obsession which is making you feel like this.

But, I really love him. I want to be with him. I want to treat him as a wonderful lover, as if he's not alone. He has someone by his side. I wasn't here only for the assistant job, but the way he always acted and talked with me.. I can't get over it.

I love him.
But he always sees Pepper as his loved one.
I guess, she's perfect, not me.

He doesn't deserve me at all.

Maybe I should try opening up to him, maybe he can understand my feelings?

I went downstairs to his lab, seeing him work on his suit. I was a little excited to tell about all what I feel about him, but I guess he wasn't actually paying attention to me.

Third Person POV

"What is it, Y/N?" He continued to work on his suit.

"Uhm, Tony, I wanted to—" Before you can speak, he asked if you can hand over him an equipment. "Can you hand me the wrench?"

You nodded and you hand him over the tool. You cleared your throat and began to speak again.

"Yeah, so—"

"Uhm, I want the screwdriver, please."

Your face became a frown and you frantically handed him the tool he asked for.

"Yeah, so what you wanted to talk about?"

"I wanted to say that.. uhm.. that I—" Your words then fully cut off again, when you heard a feminine voice outside the lab.

"Tony!" You turn around to see the special girl, Pepper who approaches Tony, and he heartily gives a smile as she arrives.

"Pep.." He stands up and grabs Pepper by the waist, and kisses her lips gently. Your heart shattered into a million pieces, as you watch them both in horror.

It was clearly proven that she's perfect, not you.

He never saw you in his eyes. He didn't love you.

Tears filling in your eyes, you tried not to weep and storm out of the lab, not wishing to see their faces again. You had enough of your life. You felt ashamed knowing why would you even fall in love with somebody who deserves someone else but not you?