You are my destiny

4

         Shivangi's life is full of secrets and its like a riddle she herself didn't know the answer to..The shivangi everyone knows is full of life,full of smile..she lost all that in this past years..Everyone here thought she is happy in her  marriage..Handsome husband,cute liitle kid and successful carreer..whatelse she need..But she only knows the hell she went through in her life..

          Her life now is colorful from the outside but nobody knows whats inside..Nobody not even the people she knew have no idea about what is happening in her life..can you believe the once knight in shining armor for ashwin is herself in a abusive marriage life?she is in this hell for past five years..

           Ajay..handsome man and most caring husband from the outside..Her aunty's son..she knows him from her childhood but she never knew he will be a monster inside..she never expected that..she couldn't handle all this too..But she has no choice..

          When she agreed to this marriage,there is only one reason for that..Her Ashwin..His dream..Nobody tries to understand her or tried to help her..Even her friends also see her with disgust when they get to know her decision..Its like she is betraying Ashwin..She only knew the truth..she only knew how much she tried to get out of this mess..nobody was there to help her not even Ashwin..

      She was left all alone like now..she fights for her love all alone but at the end of the day she lost..she lost everything to give everything for her love..To give every happiness in his life..Nobody knew the dark side of her life..After marriage she left everything back in india itself..she cut off all the contacts with her friends and everyone she knew..she started to live a secretive life just because she didn't wanted anyone to know about her life..nobody should know..Especially Ashwin ..He shouldn't know anything about her not even from some random person..

      She know what is she to Ashwin..she knew the damage she is going to make is not repairable in his life..But she convinced herself that he will forget everything when time passes..Little did she know that never going to happen..But she was left with no choice..when they gave the choice to choose between her love and ashwin's future,she choose to save his career..Actually it was her love for Ashwin only made her to take that decision..she knew ashwin was in the verge of breaking if he couldn't solve those problems at that time..Thats the starting stage of his career..If she didn't take that decision he could've lost everything even his parents too..so she left..Nobody knew this except her parents and her so called husband ajay..not even ashwin..she didn't want him to know..

        She tolerated all the pain and beating..she didn't even tried to get out of this marrige not because of her fear or anything..Just because of ashwin..because she knew whatever she did ,whatevet pain she caused him,once he get to know she is in trouble he will be there to hold her..she knew he will come..Thats why she didn't want anyone to know about all this..But this became advantege  for her husband.. she was determined about one thing when she gets married..They all forced her into the situation to make her marry someone else..They all succeeded too..But Ajay wont get anything out of this wedding..He wont get her physically or emotionally..she wont give her heart,soul and body to anybody except ashwin..If ashwin wont get her,nobody would get her..
    
         She was determined about her decision..But everything changed when Ajay forced her..He literally raped her..she tried to fight back..But he beat her till she gets unconscious..he took advantage of her in that state..she didn't know what to do..she get back to her parents place to seek help..But they convinced her thats its his rights..she tried to convince everyone but nobody was ready to hear her cries..nobody understands her..she cant fight back against his money and power.. Typical society is not ready to hear her side..out of frustration and unable to bear all this problems she tried to end her life..its the decision she took in the moment of weakness..But she got saved..saved by the monster himself..At that moment miracle happened again in her life..

      She gets to know that there is a life inside her..That should be a most happiest moment for any girl but not for her..She didn't knew either it is a bliss or curse..she cried her heart out..she decided to keep the baby afterall the baby is innocent in all this..Then Teju came..She changed  everything..she became her only hope..she became the light of her life..After teju born,Ajay too changed..Eventhough his monster side came out occasionally,he started to maintain a distance..He is really a good father for teju..so she decided to be in this marriage for teju's sake..They started to live like a strangers in the same house.. shivangi started to taking music classes because she didn't wanted to depend anybody for anything..she has teju now..so she started to live for teju..

       She was fine Eventhough she is not happy..Atleast she convinced herself that until few hours ago..until she met ashwin again..She convinced herself that he is happy..she never missed any update about him..she watched all his flims ,interviews and events..He looked happy for her..she was genuinely happy that he achieved all this..But when she see him again after these many years,she realised he is not the same ashwin..His eyes is full of pain..she can see the tears started to build in his eyes which she never wanted to see..unable to handle that,she ran away like a coward..she couldn't handle this..she was not prepared for all this..

      She wanted to cry the moment,she enter her house..She couldn't do that when teju is with her..she managed to control herself until she put teju in bed to sleep..Here she is crying her hear out holding the picture of ashwin which she managed to save from ajay..Its her favourite picture of him..Its not new actually its a daily routine to speak with him holding his picture..But today its difficult for her..she couldn't hold back her tears..she dont know how long she carressed his face..she never gets tired to see his face..

      "Ashwin.....ungala ivlo years apram pakuren..ana enala sandhosa pada mudila..na yena panradu ashwin..enaku yena panaradunu therila..inum konja neram anga na irundu irunda enga ungala hug pani ellathayum olariduvnonu bayama iruku..enaku romba bayama iruku ashwin..nenga yen inga vandenga..ivlo nal kalichu nan yen ungala pakanum..please.....please ena approach pana try panadenga ashwin..please enkita pesa try panadenga..en life la ena nadakudunu therinchuka try panadenga..na odachiduven..enaku avlo strength ila ashwin..unga palaya shivangi na ila..enaku ivlo pakathula irukenga..ana enala edume pana mudila..anda ella rights na elanduten ashwin..i lost ..i lost u..im sorry..im sorr....sorry"

      (Ashwin.....im seeing u after all these years but I couldn't be happy..i dont know what to do ashwin..im scared....im scared of what i ll do if stayed there a minute longer..please dont try to know what is going on in my life..please dont approach me..i ll break..i dont have a strength to face you again ashwin..im not your shivangi anymore..you are so close yet I couldn't do anything..i lost all the rights when i lost you..im sorry..im sorrryy)

Author's note:

          Hai everyone.dont hate me after this chapter..This chapter is for u all to understand what is happening in shivangi's life..so that u ll understand the upcoming chapters..Believe me there is a strong reason for all her actions..her every action is reasonable..Trust your author..Trust your ashangi..thank u for all your support..