Just one more (a bakudeku fanfic)

3 ~ the flame in the box

Izuku had spent most his day wandering around not wanting to go home but as he pulled out his cracked phone from his pocket and checked the time he noticed how late it was, tears began to fill his eyes at the sight of how late it'd gotten and he ran home. Walking through the door Izuku saw his dad sitting waiting for him, and in a deep growl he let out the words "where's my food you useless boy?" and as if it took all his might to get the words out Izuku said "ah...yes, sorry father, i'll get on that now." as he started to prepare the food. His father finished the plate of food and looks up at Izuku and said "WHAT WAS THAT SHIT?"
kicking his son to the ground, "WHY DONT YOU MAKE SOMETHING BETTER YOU USELESS BOY!" as he picked up the boy pinning him to the wall, "i-i'm sorry." he mumbled pleading with his father to let him go, his father threw him to the flood and he felt his vision blurring as he was slipping away.

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Deku woke up and it was pitch black outside, staring downwards at his bruised body he slowly picked himself up and made his way to the bathroom, as swiftly and quietly as he could but still slow; he undressed himself and reached for his small box pulling out into his view, removing the previous blade from the box he sliced through the scarred, distorted flesh covering his arms, and again, and again, and again: "just...one...more!" and then before he knew it his arms were covered in red, with no room left to slice he made one deep long wound in both his thighs. Placing the blade in the box he pulled out a lighter, he pushed down on the end but nothing happened, so he pushed down again, this time the fire lit; he bought the flame down to the fresh cut on his left thigh making sure to feel every second of it, then he repeated this with the right. He quickly treated his new wounds and dressed himself in his room before collapsing onto his bed and falling into another nightmarish sleep.

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Izuku awoke the next day and got dresses for school before heading downstairs, much like a normal boy, then he noticed a small piece of paper littering the table, picking it up to read the note he saw that his dad was out on business trip and would be gone for a week yet, this made Izuku the closest he'd been to happy in a while, he promptly left the house and started humming to himself as he walked to school. Nearing the gates the small boy saw Katsuki and he felt the butterfly's in his stomach flutter around, he wondered why all while hoping the boy would notice him but quite happily walked away when he didn't; this was his first time being this early to school so he didn't know if Uraraka would be here yet but as he neared his classroom he saw the girl sitting idly by waiting for someone to show up. Izuku called over to the girl who was excited to see him, he walked over to her and began to ask, "hey..uh, i need to talk to you about something privately, so could we meet after school?" and sure enough Uraraka happily agreed, "we can walk to my house together and talk there if that's ok with you," Izuku smiled and nodded his head to that statement.

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As the lunch bell rang everyone stood up except Izuku, the all made his way to lunch, his teacher pondered over to him and told him, "wake up or i'll give you extra homework!" Izuku opened his eyes, "sorry sir, it won't happen again." and he made his way out of the room. On his way to the lunch room someone came up behind Izuku and grabbed his arm, he gasped in pain and at the fact that grabs like this could reopen his wounds, "what the fuck was that about?" a familiar voice spoke, "nothing," he said as he turned around to meet Katsuki's eyes, "whatever, anyway i saw you staring at me earlier, why fuck brain?" It had only just gone through Izuku's head that he was indeed staring at Kacchan earlier, "oh, i was just thinking about something, sorry." he replied with a forced smile, this was true but he was unwilling to let Kacchan know what he was thinking about, lucking after this response he walked away leaving Izuku wondering what just happened.

Thinking about his encounter with Katsuki the butterfly's returned and with this Izuku made his way to his next class knowing that he'd already wasted enough time.

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It went in forever it seemed like but the final class of the day was over, luckily Uraraka and Izuku were in the same class, they started walking towards Uraraka's house. "hi mum, i'm here with deku cos he wanted to talk about something." she shouted upwards, "sure hon, i'll be leaving in a bit though." came the reply, Uraraka led Izuku upstairs towards her room and they both sat down, "so what did you want to talk about deku?" she asked kindly, Izuku sat quiet for a second before replying with, "well whenever i'm around Kacchan i get these..weird butterfly's in my stomach and it feels like i always want to be around him dispite what he might do." Uraraka instantly replied with, "would you want to kiss him, or possibly even more than that?" Deku paused for a moment before letting out a sigh then releasing the words, "yeah, i guess," the words that came back at him were, "Deku are you gay?" ....."well, um....uhhhhh; yeah i guess i have to say it at some point," Uraraka got an excited look on her face at this statement, "DEKUUU HAS A CRUSHHH, DEKU HAS A CRUSHHH!" she said happily and some small words escaped Izuku's lips "uh wha no but ah"..."sorry Uraraka, i um..have to go, bye." he said before hurrying off without even giving the girl a chance to reply.

When he got home, quite glad that his father was away, he ran to his room and began to think through all this emotions running through his head and started to wonder why.

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