i'm so lazy i'm not even gonna lie i like journaling on device better
lyla is being so weird and i'm putting myself in her shoes but it's not working like it always does
i feel immense guilt for taking a break and stuff but she told me it was good and then she was crying in the gc WITH ME IN IT about "mel and i taking a break like i can't breathe" i'm so irritated she wants me to know so bad i get that it's good to be open but like she keeps guilt tripping me it sucks
she said she's scared i might lose feelings since we're on a break and i said i feel the same as before
but i probably will lose feelings 100% i'm not even gonna lie to yall i'll see i guess and i don't want to i feel really bad but like i probably will and if i do idk what i'm gonna tell her
it sucks we share a friend group bc ir might be awkward and she's probably gonna tel everyone like she always does
i was on facetime when she told everyone about the break and they were like "whyy why mel" tf?? not your business at all. lucy said "but you guys were so perfect together" grow up bye i know i'm unnecessarily annoyed but this is honestly how i feel i didn't say thay or tell them but i'm seriously annoyed by everything right now and i'm trying to stop
