Assistant to Chris Evans 💙

Chapter 8

Sebastian calls or texts me everyday and we grow a lot closer. Chris and I decide to keep our distance for the most part. In the beginning of March, we fly to LA for him to do an Actors on Actors interview with Scarlett Johansson. While Chris gets his hair done, Scarlett approaches me.

She leans in to hug me, "hey Sam, how are you?"

"I'm good! You look great!"

"Oh thanks. Chris tells me you're dating Sebastian. How's that going?"

I'm a little taken aback that he would tell her. "Well kind of, yeah. Why?" I laugh.

"No reason, just always thought he'd end up with you."

"Me? Why? He's never shown any interest in me."

She tilts her head and smirks. "Really?" She points to my necklace. "What about that? I've seen you guys together, and I've seen how you look at each other when the other one isn't looking. Are you both really that blind?"

"I- I don't know what to say. Sure, I've had feelings for him, but he doesn't feel the same."

She laughs, "you keep telling yourself that."

I don't really know what to do with what she has said. But I don't forget about it.

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On March 10th, I text Sebastian.

Happy Birthday Bucky! How old are you?! 😂😉

He sends me a picture of himself with a cake.

Hey!! 106! 😂😂
You remembered! 😉
I miss you. I will be home soon.
I know we are supposed to be on lockdown, but I had an idea.

Oh? Do tell me.

Your birthday is in a few weeks, spend the weekend with me. 🥳😉

I'd love to! I miss you too. 😘

Yeah? What do you miss? 🤔

How about I show you when I come to New York? 😛😘

Deal! I got to go. 😘

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A few days before I plan on going to Sebastian's I finally confront Chris one night when watching a movie. "Chris? Can we talk?"

He turns the TV down and turns to face me. "Of course, what's up?"

"Can I ask you something?"

He nods, so I continue. I look down, not being able to look him in the eyes, "do you have feelings for me?"

I hear him clear his throat, "why do you ask?"

I look up at him, "I don't know. I've had Scott and Scarlett both hint at the fact that you do. Which confuses me because you've never made a move. You've never even hinted at having feelings for me."

He stands up and starts pacing. He's silent for a few minutes.

I suddenly realize the answer to my own question. I stand up. "Chris? How long?"

He stops pacing and looks at me. "A while? Always? I'm not really sure."

I feel my heart sink. "You're not sure?! Why didn't you tell me? Why wait until now?"

He steps closer to me, "I was going to tell you." He gently touches my necklace. "I was going to tell you at Christmas. But you had said you were going to New York to see Sebastian. I thought I missed my chance." He puts his hands on my face, fingers on my neck under my ear and thumbs on my cheeks. "Did I miss my chance?"

Is it too late? Why is this happening now? The tears start to well up in my eyes. "I don't know Chris. I-"

Before I finish his lips are on mine. I put my arms around his neck and he places his hands on the small of my back. I sink into him. He moans as he lifts me up and I wrap my legs around him as he presses me against the wall. I can feel the firmness of his cock in his pants pressed against me. I'm intoxicated by his smell. He kisses my neck. I really want to feel him but I push him away, "Chris, Chris stop. I can't do this."

He puts me down and looks at me.

"I'm sorry Chris. I have feelings for Sebastian, and I want to see where it goes." I'm angry, "Damn it Chris! I promised him there was nothing between us. What am I supposed to tell him now?"

He looks at me, "Sam. I'm sorry. I-"

"Please don't answer that Chris." I go to my bedroom and slam the door.