MCYT one shots

george?... -dreamnotfound

Genre: angst

TW:
Self harm
Suicidal thoughts
Suicide attempt

If you feel as if you can't continue with this chapter that's completely fine take care of yourself get a drink and some food ❤

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George's pov:
I had finally told my parents I was gay they didn't accept me... I knew they wouldn't... they kicked me out told me to die that I was a disgrace and a mistake... maybe there right... I don't deserve to live... I started walking to dreams apartment and walked in since I had a spare key and saw dream on the sofa I looked at him "hey dream!" I said putting on a fake smile, he looked back at me "hey gogy!" He smiled "what did your parents say?" He asked looking at me. He didn't know they were homophobic at all and I didn't wanna make him upset or mad at them "they accepted me!" I said I felt bad for lying to him... I really did.. "but can I stay with you from now on?" I asked trying not to sound too suspicious "I just don't wanna be living with my parents forever" I added and he smiled at me "of course you can!" He then went back to watching his program and I walked off upstairs into the spare room I had quite alot of my stuff at dreams already including my PC so I didn't need to worry about clothes I got changed into an oversized hoodie and joggers I looked at my PC set up and saw a pair of scissors I really wanted to... I really did... nobody loves me... nobody wants me... my parents are right... I don't belong here... I don't deserve to live...

Warning: SH (self harm) starts here!

Still gogys pov:

I walk over to my desk and grab the scissors and open them as far as they could go holding one of the blades in my hand as I drag the scissors against the skin on my arms it stung a little but it felt... good... like all my troubles left... even if it was a short time it felt nice... 1... 2....3.... 4.... 5.... 6.... 7... I put the scissors into a draw under alot of papers so nobody would see them I sat against my bed frame brought my knees to my chest and pulled the sleeves on my hoodie down over my hands and hugged my knees crying into them I tried to be as quite as I could as to not have dream worry.. I didn't want him knowing anything... about 40 minutes later I heard dream shout from downstairs he had made dinner I wasn't too hungry I lost my appetite from crying, obviously my eyes were red and puffy from crying so I put foundation and concealer under my eyes to hide it, it wasn't the best but less noticeable and I want downstairs and into the dining room.

Dreams pov:

I had made dinner and shouted george he had been upstairs for a while my guess was he was laying on the bed in the spare room scrolling through twitter or tictok. He came walking downstairs it looked like he was wearing.. makeup? Why was George wearing makeup? I mean he does wear it sometimes if he's going somewhere or something important but even then he wouldn't wear foundation and just by looking at him I could tell he was wearing foundation i thought nothing of it till he had walked past me to his seat I saw red coming from under the foundation.. had he been.. crying?.. but why? He seemed really happy earlier.. did something happen?.. I walked over to my seat that was next to george and began eating from time to time I glance at george to see he wasn't eating much "not hungry?" I asked him he did look more down than he usually does.. he'll probably tell me when he's ready... he does struggle with his emotions sometimes so I just gotta be patient for him... he looked at me "not really sorry dream" he mumbled I looked st him with a sad smile, not because he didn't eat my food but because I know somethings going on now "ok go take some rest you look tired" I spoke out and he gave a small nod and got up and headed towards the stairs before he walked up I spoke "george?" I said catching his attention as he looked at me "are you ok? You seem really upset.." I said in a soft voice as not to upset him more he hesitated and then nodded as to say he was ok I knew it was a lie but sighed and said "ok" as he walked up the stairs. I finished my food and put the plates into the dishwasher and went to walk to my room to get changed but as I walked past George's room I heard a cry come from inside and I knocked on his door "george?.." I said in a soft like tone "are you ok in there?..." I asked I heard a sniffle come from the older boy and then a small bearable "y-yeah" stutter come from his mouth. He sounded so... broken it hurt to hear him like that "hey george... can I come inside?..." I asked leaning on the wall next to the door as george stuttered out "y-yeah hang o-on..." I then herd shuffling come from the room amd then a couple minutes later george opened the door he had clearly been crying alot too and he looked.... pale.... "come in..." He said as he went and sat on his bed and I followed him in closing the door behind me and then scanned the room and saw a orange empty pill bottle which I knew was full and he saw where I looked and he just looked down "george..." I mumbled and then he fell forwards and I ran over to him and caught him "GEORGE!!"

George's pov:

After sitting with dream a while he must have noticed I wasnt eating anything as he then spoke "not hungry?" And I just mumbled out "not really... sorry dream..." and he looked at me with a sad smile I felt really bad I knew it wasn't because I didn't eat his food becuase dreams not petty like that but I still felt bad and he then spoke "go get some rest you look tired" and I just nodded and got up from the table and walked towards the stairs but before I walked up them I heard dream say my name which caught my attention and I looked at him "are you ok?" He asked "you seem kinda upset.." he continued I hesitantly nodded and walked up the stairs as I heard dream mumble "ok" I went straight to my room and sat on my bed and scrolled through twitter a little and saw a hate post about me I read through the comments 'george is so ugly' 'ew I don't understand why he's so famous he's so disgusting!' 'He can't even play minecraft properly!' 'Honestly the dream team are better without him!' 'He's so useless he's just the annoying one of the team that they all tolerate!' I cried while reading all the comments 124k comments on the post all of them hate a couple 2 or 3 defending him but all the rest hate either saying he should be dead or that he's useless "maybe there right..." i mumbled "maybe I am better off gone... I'm just a bother..." I look around the room and see a full pill bottle and walk over to it opening it and swallowing them all still crying my arms bleeding I then heard dreams voice "george?..." he said in the softest tone I knew his voice could do "are you ok in there?..." He asked and I stuttered out a small "y-yeah" I knew that wouldn't be convincing at all.. after hearing me dream spoke again "george?.... can I come inside?...." He asked without even thinking I again stuttered out "y-yeah" then I walked around my room to go open my room door my body felt weak I'm guessing it was from the pills after opening the door for dream I got dizzy and went and sat on the bed he followed me inside and closed the door behind him and then looked around the room I then realised that I forgot to put the empty pill bottle somewhere he wouldn't see it but it was too late he saw it I just looked down the dizziness getting worse and worse I heard dream mumble out my name but then I blacked out...

Dream pov:
After george blacked out I knew for sure he took an overdose and I lay him down on the bed and pulled out my phone and called an ambulance "hello! Please help! My boyfriend took an overdose and has blacked out! The address is 45 ********* ******* the front door is unlocked we're upstairs!" They had dispatched an ambulance imediatly and I stayed on the phone as they spoke me through how to make sure he's still alive and I listened and done everything they said till the ambulance arrived and then went to the hospital in the ambulance with george I had to wait in the waiting room and I paced around as minutes turned into hours I had been crying non-stop since george blacked out I sat at one of the chairs waiting for a doctor amd then a nurse came walking over to me I was the only one in the waiting area "you here for a george?" She asked and I nodded "he's ok all pills are out of his system and he's now awake but he's got to stay in for 3 more days on suicide watch if we see any improvement in his mental health in the next 3 days then he can go home but if we do not we would have to send him to a mental hospital where they can help him... you can see him now he's in room 125" she spoke I gave a nod to show that I understood everything she said and then walked to George's room and walked up to his bed "thank god you are ok!" I said walking over to him and kissing his head he gave a small sad smile "I'm sorry dream..." He mumbled I sighed "don't apologise george" I said running my thumb over his knuckles "I'm just glad your ok" I continued he smiled a little "george?..."
He hummed in response "why didn't you tell me how you was feeling?... I could have helped..." I said and looked at his eyes and saw him tear up "I-i don't know dream... i-im sorry..." I gave him a small kiss on his cheek "calm down I'm not mad just a bit confused... but let's not worry about that now the main thing is that your ok... you can explain when your ready ok?..." and he nodded in a response

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Sorry its short and crappy.. and sorry to anyone I made cry it's currently 1:20am and I wanted to get something out sorry if there's any spelling mistakes or bad grammar