Failure

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Failure...

Something i feel too much...

I thought it wouldn't be able to take control. I thought i could never disappoint my own mother. I was wrong!

I have never been good at math ever! My sister is female Einstein with math, she would even do my math homework for me when all i asked was for some help understanding it in elementary.

I'm in high school now and i still don't understand, doesn't help that last school year was virtual due to a stupid pandemic. The teachers would basically lecture us until class was over and i DON'T do good with retaining what i learn when 1. I don't understand it! And 2. I can't ask a question for them to break it down and use dummy words.

I try and try and try to understand and i do the best i can, but no matter what it isn't good enough.

Try harder
                    
                                   Your not trying hard                                                                                                     enough

Do you wanna lose all your          friends?

                                          Your going to fail

Your doing this to yourself

These words circle around in my head on repeat. I used to fight them but now i  just listen and accept it. No reason to fight it anymore.

It's whatever

   
       

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