TW: body shaming, (hate speech?)
POV: Alina.
i wake up and decide to go on instagram, when all the sudden i see an edit saying billie and ava were a better couple.
ouch.
i start crying.
i know i'm not what everyone wanted, i know i'm not as pretty as her, but it hurt, seeing so many people agree, or say they don't like either of us, it hurts. the names.. "she's a whore" "billie and ava were happier!" "idk why billie likes her shes dumb." "stupid British b!tch" "she's so fat lmao" .. i start crying even worse looking through the comments. i can't breathe.
next thing i know i'm sitting on the floor having a panic attack, attack as billie walks in
"hey ba- baby what's wrong?!" Billie runs over to me.
"i-" i try to explain what happened, but i can't speak. i push my phone over to her, the video repeating and comments opened.
"oh hell no." she mutters obviously mad.
"i'm sorry billie, i'm not good for you am i?." i stutter.
"no baby your perfect. your body, face, your smile, everything is perfect, you're perfect for me my love.
"i'm sorry." i repeat not able to say anything else.
"fuck" billie curses.
POV: Billie.
fuck this. i'm done. i go on my phone and type in their username. find the video and comment
"if you think saying this shit about someone's relationship, or even just about someone in general you are FUCKED.
all of you. and no i was not "happier" with ava, yeah i fucking loved her then, but she wasn't good for me, she verbally abused me. and you guys think it's okay?? you are all sick."
i throw my phone down on the dresser.
"it's okay baby people talk. always, it's not true and you know it, they're fake. you know you're the one for me.
".." she stays quiet.
i go get her inhaler.
it fucking hurts to see her like this.
i hug her and she starts calming down.
she wraps her arms around my waist slightly crying, but still hyperventilating,
i pick her up and sit her in my lap as she wraps her arms and legs around me, putting her head on my shoulder. i play with her hair, and rub her back til she's calm.
wait i think she fell asleep.
good.
i lay her down and cover her up, i put her phone on the dresser to let it charge, and let her rest.
i love her so much. i don't want to have her go through that. ever again.
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i decide to go live and address this.
"hey." i say and wait for everyone to join
"okay.. so now a bunch of people are here i just wanted to address the fact that someone made an edit saying horrible things about Alina. and the comments were worse. if you had anything to do with that i need you to respectfully unfollow me. that was uncalled for, and if you're a real fan you would know Ava treated me like shit. goodnight to all my other lovely's. i end the live and go back to our room seeing shark cuddled up next to her,
i plug up my phone and go lay down next to them.
i kiss Alina on the head. "im sorry baby, i'll try to keep this from happening again. i love you. and remember people talk it's what they do."
