POV: Billie
My baby <3
I'm sorry you had to see that.
But it's okay, I don't blame you. I was being kinda annoying. But please, do text me if you think we can retry this.
I have to go, have a good day. xx.
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"Why did she say I love you?? I don't get it Claudia. If she loved me then why did she leave?? She went all the way back to England." I cry into Clauds stomach.
Me and Claudia are currently laying down in my bed, While i stuff my face with vegan icecream.
"I know you are gonna tell me no, or give me a lecture, but Claudia.. I really wanna die. Like- I don't wanna live anymore. I keep getting comments, and seeing posts, and even people saying my ex's were better and or worst, and it honestly sucks. I just wanna move and change my name." I vent to Claudia.
I watch as her eyes form tears, assuming she can't imagine having to go through this herself.
"I'm so sorry billie,, I couldn't imagine what you're going through. But please don't hurt yourself."
"Claudia.."
"Please, I'll always be right here for you. No matter what. Even if me and Finneas weren't together I'd be right here forever."
I pause for a minute and look back at Claudia. "Do you think she'll come back?.."
Her mouth opens as if she was gonna say something but she just closes it. The tears in my eyes start to fall as I stare into her green-blue eyes.
I hid my face in my hands as I start uncontrollably crying.
"I don't even know why I'm crying. She probably isn't even phased." I complain throwing my hands up and putting them back down, followed by me throwing my head back with a small scream.
"I'm sure she is- Billie I promise she cares." She reassures me, rubbing my back consolingly.
I just keep crying until I'm rolled up in a ball in the middle of my bed.
"Billie you need to stop crying.. we had to cancel your photo shoot because you couldn't even look at the kids without crying; and your eyes being so red."
I look up at Claudia and just break down again, I thought I was finally done, but nope.
"Oh Billie.."
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POV: Mady
"Alina are you awake?" I ask peeking into her room.
Every since she came back she's been out of it. I feel bad but I just wanna make her happy, but I can't.
I feel like a crappy sister to her,, but when she wakes up I'm gonna give her some of her favoriteeee fruits! That'll cheer her up surely. I think to myself as I walk to my room to lay down and watch Netflix.
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POV: Alina
"Alinaaa wake up!!" Mady says frustratedly from, I guess trying to get me up for a little while.
"Fuck I'm awake sorry." I groan. "Finally your butt to so long. I made you fruits!.. well momma helped but you get the point!" Mady says excitedly.
I feel bad for her. I'm still not hungry but for her I will try to eat some of this..
"You wanna watch a movie little one?" I ask, forcing a smile. "I kinda miss when Billie called me little princess.." she frowns, which only makes me sadder.
"I know." I say consolingly, rubbing her back.
I take out my phone and start typing.
My girl <3
Hey, Bil, you awake?
Yeah. Why?
Mady misses you.
She does?
Of course she was more excited
to see you then me.
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Cute.
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I press the call button without hesitation, I know it wasn't just for mady. I missed her so bad.
She answers after a few rings.
"Get out Claudia." i hear her whisper yell, and of course a smile tugs at my lips as i listen to her fight with Claudia.
"Uhm, sorry about that." She apologizes with a small smile. and i just smile at her. god i missed her smile.
Mady takes me phone from my hands and waves at Billie.
"Hii Billieeee."
"Hey little princess, what's up?"
i smile softly at their interaction.
"Nothinnn' I'm just watching a movie with Alina."
"Oh that's awesome." I watch as Billie lays down on her side keeping the camera facing her.
"I really miss you Billie." Mady sighs after a minute of silence.
"I miss you too, Mady."
I watch as a tear falls from Mady's eye.
"Oh honey no, don't cry."
Mady hands me back my phone, stuffing her head into my stomach.
"Billie-" I start but she cuts me off. "I'm so sorry Alina,, I-" she pauses and takes a deep breath. "I shouldn't have got mad at you. It's just, you know if anyone found out the articles that would have been made saying I probably have been doing them too."
I sigh, I know she's right. It just is hard to admit. "I get Billie. I shouldn't have left, but I didn't think they'd have drugs. I thought they changed and just wanted to hang out." I see tears form in her eyes as i speak.
I watch in silence and Billie messes with her hair, until she lifts her arm up to wave off someone at the door.
"Billie...?"
"Yeah?"
"What's on your wrist?"
"Shit-" she pauses turning off her camera.
"Billie- please tell me you didn't.."
"Oh uhm I'll brb, ba- Alina. I uhm, I need to get something." Billie lies putting herself on mute.
"Please tell me she didn't." I whisper to myself, tears filling my eyes.
I look over and see Mady sleeping. I pick her up walking to her room. I open the door quietly and gently lay her down on her bed. Her night light is on so she won't be in the dark.
I take her remote, turning the volume on her tv low, before clicking play. I know she wakes up late at night sometimes.
I head back to my room and find Billie no longer on pause, but with a sweat shirt on, sitting beside Claudia.
"Hey. sorry, Mady fell asleep so I put her in her room."
"It's okay."
I miss her so much.
